Grief

All right. Hello, everybody. This is Connecting with Friends, and I am Tracy. And here with me today is my other friend, Tracy, my friend, Nicole, my friend, Carrie, and my friend, Tanya. And Tanya's been away, so she's back here with us for the first time. So it'll be a good talk today. And then we brought in Mary. And I've known Mary since about five, since I was five years old. My dad and her husband worked together for so many years, so even before Mary had kids, I've been around. Yes, you have. Welcome, Mary. Welcome. Thank you. Thank you. So did you bring your topic today? I brought my topic today. I was all set on a topic. And then on the way here, I got a sign. Ooh. We love those. And a sign said, we need to talk about grief. Oh, yeah. And we need to talk about healing. And we need to talk about just a couple books that have helped me along my way. I've lost my best friend of 40 years. And it was the most horrific pain. And that's... Yeah. That's up. I lost my best friend. I found her. She had a heart attack in the middle of the night. How did you lose your best friend? She had lost her husband. And she was alone for about five years. She had moved her mother in with her. And they had a great time. And her mother was getting older and said, it's time for you to move on. So I want to go to the nursing home and live. And I want you to move on. And so her mom went to the nursing home. And we were just kind of getting her out of her shell. And she wasn't feeling well. Had a lot of back pain. She had a lot of suffering. You know, a lot of different ailments. And I think I missed every sign because she, you know, she was always sick. Always had something. And she said her back really hurt. So she was going to the doctor. And I said, do you want me to go with you? And she said, no, they're just going to tell me, blah, blah, blah. Don't worry about it. I'll call you. Because I had an appointment in Omaha that day. 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