UNLEASHED Mar 12 '24

The speaker is discussing their need for support in taking care of their physical well-being, specifically in terms of their diet and nutrition. They express their struggle with paying attention to their body's needs and often neglecting their health. They mention considering subscribing to a food delivery service to help with meal planning and healthy eating. The speaker also talks about feeling stagnant and isolated in their new location, which affects their mental well-being. They acknowledge the importance of consciously choosing and enjoying their food, as well as the need to rewrite their narrative around food. They express a desire for support in addressing these issues as it will have a positive impact on their overall well-being. Okay. I hope you guys had a great spring break. Good to see you back here. We're going to dive right in. And I have a Jillian is catching a plane, but I have a message from her that I'll answer here. So I need to remember to do that at the end. And let's start with something you would like to acknowledge or celebrate, and then what you'd like greater support around. So please just go ahead and unmute yourself, and we'll jump in. I'll go first. Hello. Yeah, it was not healthy the last couple weeks. Got run down a little bit, I think. So what I'm celebrating is being healthy again, because it just sucks to be sick. So with me being run down and sick, I think what I want support over, and I was going to talk to you, and I'll be on another level too, is I guess just diet and nutrition. We have little things in our module that talk about taking care of our body. But I just need support in taking care of this physical body. Sometimes I just don't pay attention to the signs, and I don't slow down. And I feel like I put off my health like I put off chores sometimes. It's just another thing I got to be aware of, and it's just like, oh, my God, something else. So I tend to let my nutrition go. And so I was going to make steps to subscribe to one of those box food companies, like Healthy Fresh or whatever, because I did that a period of time ago, and I felt like it was good organic eating. I was consciously making a day set aside for meal prep, so I would stay on track and eat healthy. And I know I need to do this, because it also helps relieve the stress of going to the supermarket, because I can't stand going to the supermarket, and I put it off as long as I can. So I just need support in my physical well-being. Like I said, nutrition. Nutrition is where I need to focus, because if I don't feel well, and I'm putting crap in my body, it's just going to be a vicious cycle. And I see that with being in the Pacific Northwest now, and not getting a lot of sunshine like I used to get, and not being outdoors like I used to be in Florida. So I'm very stale, staying in my house, and, you know, trying to run out in between rainstorms to go for a walk. It's just a different lifestyle out here right now. And so I just don't feel like I'm taking care of myself, and I think that's where some of the sickness is coming from. Yeah, sure. Your body will tell you, right? Yeah. It will tell you. So it doesn't sound to me like you don't know what to do. It sounds like you're not doing it. Is that correct? Yes. The things that you already said that you need to do is pay attention, slow down, get out into nature, and focus on, you know, eating better. So what's – may I ask, Brenda, what is the main focal point of your mental energy? What are you, like, thinking about most of the day long? Where does your attention go? Most of the day – well, you know, work's a big part of the day, but most of the day is after the work is finished, I don't have – I'm doing just filler things. I'm not doing things that bring me joy. Like, I'm not involved in the community. I moved out here to be near my grandkids, so, you know, if I don't go see them, I find myself wasting time around the house. Like, I'll put on a Netflix show and binge for four hours. I'm like, what the – why did I waste all my time doing this? I just – yeah, it's like kicking the can down the road, you know? Yeah. I'm just like, why do I keep doing that? I know that's self-sabotage. Okay. So, it sounds like you have – you don't have a clear direction, and that you haven't yet allowed yourself to know who you are, and that you haven't made a commitment to either of those things. True. So, the diet, you know, from my perspective, the first place to start is just eating real food. Like, it's actually really simple, right? Like, just meat, fruit, vegetables, whole grains. Like, make sure you're getting enough good quality protein, fats, and vegetables. So, when you look at your diet, what does it mainly consist of right now? It's just mostly snack stuff. Like, I ate tomatoes and mozzarella and balsamic, like, on baguettes for, like, three days for dinner. I mean, I bought, like, five tomatoes and a mound of mozzarella cheese and a box of pita crackers, and I'm like, yeah, this will work for dinner for three days. You know, then I'll get sick of this, so now I'm on Chomps speed sticks, because it's just easy to grab a Chomps stick. It's like, yeah, it's just like – it's like, why do I do this? This is so lazy. This is not moving me towards my healthy goal. I don't think it's lazy. I think – I don't think you're lazy at all. I think that there's something else in the way. Okay. And this is for any of us where we realize, like, there's a goal or there's something we know we want, but we're not, yeah, working towards it, whether it's in our business, whether it's in our home, whether it's in our relationships, whether it's with our diet. To me, that's the real curious part is looking at, yeah, what is that mechanism? What is that thing? What is – what is it that's actually getting in the way of you not only making those choices, but committing to them and following through? Yeah, because we come – because our childhood, you know, food was scarce. It was kind of competitive with me and my three brothers. And so it's like, now I can afford to go buy the damn food. I have a good job. We can afford food on the table now. So it's like, why not eat healthier? Why not make that conscious choice to do better? And it's like, I don't know – yeah, all of us kids have food issues, but mine is not severe like my brother's. I mean, my brother packs food because he's worried – he doesn't know when his next meal's coming. I mean, it's that extreme. I mean, he's a grown man and does that. I don't hoard food. I just don't buy it. You don't buy it at all. You don't buy it. It sounds like – is your next best step to – you had mentioned ordering some food from those companies that bring the meals and – Yeah, yeah. I have a coupon. I was going to – that was on the list today to stop putting it off. Okay, I was going to say, are you willing to commit to doing that today? Yes. Okay, and will you confirm that you did that inside of our group and – Ah, you're holding me accountable. Yes, I need to be held accountable. Don't you want to be? I do. I need to be. I do. I need to be okay. Otherwise, it's really hard to do these things. Yeah. It's crazy, right? We're all adults, but it can feel – and that's where I love groups and support and accountability. We do think differently when other people are watching. That's true. It's true, yeah. When we just know like, oh, I've said this out loud. I've spoken this in the universe. It's not just in my head. I've actually stated that I want this and that I'm going to do it, which is another form of reclaiming your power. Okay, yeah. Third chakra is solar plexus. This is related to physical digestion. It's also related to mental-emotional digestion and related to that sense of internal power. My sense, Brenda, is that you've lost that a little bit in your move out to the West Coast. You haven't recreated your life yet. Yeah, right. Yeah, and that's okay. It's just what I'm hearing from you is that you're ready to have other experiences and to create a life that is truly your life, not just, I moved here because of my grandkids, which is a beautiful purpose, but there needs to be more in your life than just your grandkids. Yeah, yeah. Life for you. Yeah. I think the diet is important and so symbolic because how we nourish ourselves, how we nurture ourselves through food, which I see the food as the divine mother. Yes. Like love. And when we nurture ourselves and our tissues and our bones and our blood with real food, healthy, whole food, it's a prayer and it's an act of gratitude because we can consciously, we can eat just like shoving our face filling the bowl or we can be like, wow, this is a ceremony. This is a ritual of taking in these things that the universe has grown really quite miraculously. I'm going to consume. It's going to feed my body and give me greater energy so that I can show up inside of my life in a way that feels even better. Yeah, and you had a beautiful module on prayer and food and honoring the food. And that really resonated with me because one of the things my brothers always say when we're out to dinner is like, Brenda, why do you eat so fast? I don't know. I don't enjoy the food. It's just another thing we got to do. We got to get through this. And I mean, really, we used to like fight over food on the plate. So it was really like a protective thing because I'm like, I eat it first and you can't have it. It's ridiculous. But it's not because it's programming, right? Like I said, the programming is deep. So it'll be really important too that you consciously rewrite that narrative like you're saying like, okay, I'm safe. I have the resources to purchase the food that I want. Nobody is going to like take this away from me. I can slow down and receive the nourishment. I can consciously eat. I can make this something I even enjoy. But to consciously and I think the slowing down piece is a big part of it. Taste the food. Like take a moment or more of gratitude before like this food is supporting you and keeping you alive, right? Yeah, I even get tense up talking about food. So it's like I can feel it and I can feel it physically when talking about food. And where do you feel it physically? Just in my chest. Just like, oh, this is, yeah. So yeah. So yeah, that's kind of where I need support at because I think if I can get this big thing under control, I don't want to say under control, but understand it better, I think that'll get me leaps and bounds mentally sharper too. Like I said, I'm having trouble making decisions being out here. I'm in a constant battle with why I moved out here and I'm not happy, but I feel like I should be here. So I've got a lot of internal battle about being out here in the Pacific Northwest and a new start. And I can do it, you know, it's limitless, you know, what I can do. I have an incredible opportunity out here, but I'm not doing anything. So I'm still, I find myself being stuck. I found myself this weekend, I was going into a black hole and I just got the jacket and got the rain boots and said, screw it. I'm going out in the rain. Everybody else does it out here. So I went for a walk in the rain, felt a lot better, took a shower, washed off the day instead of crawling into bed. Like that was over and I would just fall on the bed and just forget about the day. But I'm trying, I'm trying. It's a small step. Well, maybe those are big steps and you get to celebrate yourself like genuinely because when we tell ourselves good things about ourselves, the body mind doesn't know if we just, you know, wrote a book, went to the moon, like it doesn't care what we did. We can celebrate brushing our teeth. We can celebrate getting out of bed. We can celebrate. Oh my God, I just went for a walk. I did the same thing yesterday when I'm back in Swamish pouring rain. I have these like plastic rain pants that I bought online that I put on and my jacket and I go out because it's beautiful. It's so pleasing. It's so purifying. It's like, wow. And no one's around. And yeah, it's quiet. Yeah, it's nice. It's like there's medicine in it. So we always get to decide our point of view. Interesting view that I have that point of view that I can't do this or I can't do that or it's hard. And I would say if where you are right now, choose it like you're not going to move tomorrow. No. So if you are there, act as though you chose it because you did and you can you actually can go anywhere else at any time. So stop being a victim to yourself and your own decisions and be like, okay, I'm here in this moment of my life. I may not live here forever. So there'll be a time that I'm maybe further away from my grandkids and my daughter. And so I'm going to really just enjoy being in this rain forest for this time because we don't belong. We have anywhere. So it's like if we're going to be somewhere. Stop fighting it. Yeah. I'm fighting it. Yeah. Yeah. Or do something about it. Right. Like change it. Right. Or be there like find a way to genuinely like it. And that means I think stepping into the seat of yourself and in the seat of your life and saying, okay, this is what I'm doing right now. That's it. I don't know what the future holds, but I'm choosing this now and I'm going to find a way to enjoy myself in my life. Thank you. That resonates with me. And I like the fact that you're always in your models and dance with me videos because I find myself absolutely participate. I was like, boy, that woman likes to dance. She's always in with the dance video. And by golly, yesterday I turned on one of those videos. I found one of the ones of the songs I liked. I'm like, I'm going to dance with Melody today. So that does help the energy level. Absolutely helps energy level. And I got some things done. So I wanted to thank you for that little, you know, continuing the dance-a-thon with us. Yeah. You know, it's that part of the program is like the hardest part for me. It's so funny because it's like I actually love it, but it's like the hardest part. I'm like, wow, this is so necessary. It's like leaning into what is uncomfortable. Yeah. So necessary. Otherwise, we just avoid it and don't do it. Right? Right. So light ahead to your new food service. Yes. To slowing down and to nurturing yourself on all levels. Will do. Thank you. You're welcome. Thank you. All right. Who's next? Val, I see you're here, but I don't see your face, which is fine. Maybe you can't be on video at the moment. Angie, you're up. Hello. Hi. I am celebrating. Do you think? I got really angry with a friend last week. It just felt good to be angry because I often do a little spiritual bypass like, oh, it's nothing personal, you know. But no, I got angry and I let myself be angry. And it just brought in this awareness where, you know, what parts of me are willing to tolerate toxic relationships or things that I'm no longer willing to tolerate. And then I made a list of all the things that I want in my female friendship. And I spoke up for myself. So that felt really good. And I had a really lovely weekend with my daughter. We went to Ottawa to check out Carleton. So she might go there in the fall. So it was just a fun mother-daughter trip. So yeah, OK. Yeah. So what I need help with, it's a question you asked me in the chat. And every time I sit with it, like, I get nothing. So I just needed to get into it. Where is your self-doubt getting in the way of receiving support? And I feel a little bit plateaued in my creation, my offering. OK. So tell me a little bit more about that. You feel like you've plateaued in your offerings, like your business offering? Yeah, so my five weeks is done. OK. Done, yeah, of my first modality. And then, so I'm taking a week off. And then next week, I'll offer another free webinar. And then go into another five weeks. Yeah, I just feel, because I guess the first launch, like, it's a high, right? It feels really good. Yeah, so I just feel a bit plateaued there. Like, I have to muster up, not muster up, I don't know if that's the right word. But I have to find the enthusiasm again, I guess. Right. No. Here's what I would say. Because if you continue to run your, and I totally understand. Like, if you continue to run your business from that place of, I have to muster up enthusiasm, and I have to create these ideas, and I, it's very stressful. So what would it be like to simply focus on what fills up your cup? What fills up my cup? Yeah. What right now are you not doing that you would love to be doing? Like, in your life? Finishing my creation. That's what I'm not doing. I'm not finishing. I've got a manual I want to work on. I haven't done anything around that. I have, I decided, I decided I also want to offer, like, just one-off classes. Like, I want to do, like, which would be a little bit of class and a little bit of energy clearing. So, like, a one-hour thing. I actually started one on the nervous system. So I need to finish it and then advertise it. Set a date and advertise it. The list thing. And does that feel, like, alive for you? Does that feel like something you're like, yeah, that I want to be offering that right now? Yeah. I really, I like teaching. Like, when I watch myself back, I'm like, that's me, really? Like, wow. Wow. Yeah. Wow. Yeah. So it doesn't sound like you don't know what to do. It's a little bit what we're saying with Brenda. Like, you're just not doing the thing. Right. Not doing the thing. Like, you have this whole manual, this whole program you want to create. You have these one-off classes. You even have the ideas. So it's not about, like, I need to get creative. I need to muster up an idea. It's what is in the way of you actualizing. Right. So I feel like the way I perceive myself just day-to-day and the way when I watch myself back teaching, like, it's not the same person. Okay. What's the difference? Like, this enthusiasm and this excitement when I'm on, that's not there when it's just me. Sometimes it is, but yeah. So do more teaching. Well, that's why I started. The day I started to do the class on the day I started teaching, the day I started to do the class on the nervousness, I felt really down that day. I was like, okay, I will acknowledge I'm feeling down, but I'm going to channel this into something else. And that's when I started creating the class. I just opened the slides deck and started creating. And it feels really good. Yeah. So is it fair to say then that your enthusiasm is connected to creating and teaching? Yeah. So that it's a little bit of chicken or egg, right? Like, get yourself into that point. And I would say just like, make it and maybe you're not making it precious right now, but like, just get it out. Just do more. Because then you're going to get your chops as far as like teaching this way. I know you've been a teacher for many years, but teaching in this way, talking about the things you love, and that's going to fuel the enthusiasm. And then you'll just keep riding that wave. Because I had that same thing. I feel like, wow, I feel most excited, most connected when I'm like serving my clients or when I'm teaching or when I'm doing something, the in-between parts of like marketing or writing emails. Like, I don't love that stuff. Right. So you can either hire out or find a way to love it. For me, I'm finding that I like it more and more, the more freedom I give myself. So I've just decided because I had this download to do a sugar detox and to offer sugar detox. I'm like, what am I doing? This is further away. Like, this is more in that realm of, you know, health, healing, Ayurveda. But the work that I've been doing the last years is in a different direction. And I was like, I don't know why. And I'm going to do it because I had the inspiration and I had the download. And I'm not going to question it, actually. And I'm just going to offer what is most alive. And all you have to do is track that energy. What is most alive? And then say yes, even if it doesn't make sense. Do the thing. Don't wait. Because the waiting is a big where doubt starts to come in. And then like procrastination, lethargy. And like, oh, I don't know. Well, does anyone care? Is anyone going to want to do this? I don't know. What if like all the drama that can start to flood in and then we don't do anything. Right. Have you had that experience? Yeah, yeah. Right. Like you get the inspiration. It seems really great. And then maybe the next day or a few hours later, it's like, oh, I don't know. You talk yourself out of it. Literally talk yourself out of like this inspiration, this divine download. So it's more like staying power. That's what we're talking with Brenda about. It's not the idea. It's not the inspiration. It's the actualization. It's the staying power. And I think support and accountability are really huge for that. And then, again, Manipura chakra, that third chakra, commitment to devotion. And like, why? Why are you doing this? And to connect to that purpose, connect to that reason. Why? Because we're all going to wobble. And then the re-identification. And this, I think, is the crucial piece, is devoting more of your energy and attention to where you're going, not where you've been. Devoting more of your energy and attention to who am I? Who am I wanting to be? I can be the one who is riddled with self-doubt. Or I can be the one who's like, I'm just doing this thing. And I'm having fun doing it. And I'm not attached to the outcome. Because the ego will attach to the outcome. And then it's like, we don't even start because we don't want to fail or be disappointed or maybe be vulnerable or be subject to criticism or maybe even worth great humiliation. Do you see? It goes on for you. Like in the way? Or what do I see in the future? Both. Either or. Yeah, what I see in the way is just this, like, kind of slipping back into this kind of flatness, this association. Yeah. And where do you want to be going? I want to create a huge community and, you know, train others in my modality so they can bring it forth globally and feel the world. Yeah. And so are you ready to take your purpose seriously? Yeah, yeah, I am. Like, if your soul came here to do that, and you're going to let an inner narrative of disassociation, of collapse, keep you from that purpose, you can't do that. But it's like, you are a soul. You are an eternal energy and you're here and you're letting a story in your head stop you. If we listen to the stories in our head, we're not going to do anything we came here to do. Right. Like, and so we have to be bigger than the story in our head. We have to see that it's just a story, just a narrative, and it doesn't have to be the identity. And the identity has to be consciously chosen. Otherwise that story, it will feel very compelling and very real. And then we live our life from that story, opposed to conscious choice. So these moments where we kind of wobble and falter and go back into old programming are things to celebrate. You're like, oh, I'm doing that thing again, and I've noticed it, and I'm going to make this choice now. And what do I need to do for me to reconnect to my enthusiasm? Oh, I need to go see the horses. I need to go do yoga. I need to walk. I need to watch a funny movie. I need to have a bath. I need to stand on my head. Like, it can be anything. And then we have to do it. We have to do the thing. We have to do it. And that's the biggest thing is when you get the inspiration, when you get the download, when you get that knowing to follow it, follow it, follow it, follow it. Don't question it. Just follow it and see what happens. I think that's where we maybe all fall short. We have that gut feeling. We have the knowing. We have the intuition. And then the ego's like, no, no, too big of a dream. No, no, too big of a dream. Who are you to do that? Nobody gives a shit. All that whatever, whatever ego damage is going on. It's like, excuse me, I am no longer available for that narrative. I am no longer available for disassociation. I'm no longer entertaining that identity. Because it's actually pretty boring. It is boring. Right? Like, are you bored of it? Yeah. Well, I tend to blame my boredom outwards, like other people's boring patterns. Project that onto others. Yeah, yeah. Oh, I'm stuck in this pattern. It's so boring. Right. That's a good one. It's actually me, yeah, bored of my own pattern. Which is great. I feel like that's often the place that I make massive changes when I'm just so sick of hearing myself tell the same story. And I'm like, wait a second, I'm telling that story. And I'm so scared of hearing myself tell it inside of my head with other people. Yeah. So what do you feel is your next best step to move forward? Finish my nervous system class, finish my email for my offering for next week. Okay. And then set a date for the class. Yeah. And I think also I need to set a dedicated work time for working on my certification. Dedicated work time for working on my certification. Okay, absolutely. Otherwise, it won't happen. Right. And the other thing I would offer you is that you set a revenue goal. Okay. You want to make more money, right? Yeah. So that needs to be included in that. Okay. And that could be fun. Yeah. That could be fun. Like, okay, this is what I'm creating. And be specific about it. And then line up to the energy of the thing. That's the only thing that is separating us from the actualization is we haven't lined up our energy to it. We haven't fully got on board with it. But it's within you because the vision, the dream is in you. So the energy is also. Right. You don't need to process anything more. You don't need to heal anything more. You just need to choose it. And then keep choosing it. When we flip, it's like we have to remember again. Oh, I just went back to sleep. Wake up. Oh, I just forgot. Wake up. That's it. Okay. Thank you. Yeah. I can't wait to see what you create next. Thank you. Thank you. All right, Jessica. So I, I'm actually, I need to, I'm going to go back and re-listen to what you all just talked about because it, it speaks pretty clearly. I'm celebrating the fact that on Tuesday of last week, I was like, of all of the weeks for us to not have a call, this is the one. But also it was sort of like taking that opportunity to stand on my own feet instead of needing to like put that out on support from, from anybody else. Because yeah, it's been a hell of a couple weeks. But I'm here. Yeah. I'm thinking that you're here. I'm here. So my support, and I'm, apologies if it sort of seems really disjointed for a second before like it comes together and actually makes sense as a support ask. We went from, in our household, the discussion of sure, we'll be fine, like take the time that you need to heal to all of a sudden my husband being like, I'm on the phone with lawyers talking about bankruptcy. So went through some feelings of anger and betrayal and, you know, all of those pieces like, we have, anyway, so that's sort of the context around like that, that feels like an important piece. And I asked him to take that conversation off the table and quit putting energy towards it because I was like, no, we're not doing that. Like, we will figure this out and like quit feeding this thing that's making me physically ill to even hear the word. So then looking at other options. So I'm sort of feeling and wondering, there are two directions that I see from, and I guess it's not two, but the two that I'm sort of looking at with any real energy are, I can sort of, I can do a thing that I know how to do that seems like it would be fairly simple. You know, I have sort of a plan for, and it's a very logical plan of like working with two clients and teaching yoga once a month, like once a week. And I could, you know, I could get us to a place where I add what I'm making to what my husband is making and, you know, we're okay and we can build from there and we can figure stuff out. And then there's the whole, you know, what you were talking about in terms of, you know, I'm a soul and I'm here to do a thing. And I see that I have seen the possibility for doing bigger stuff and for bringing in more nourishment and getting stuck on the idea that because that path is uncertain and because, you know, I don't know, like I, whatever I choose right now, I feel like, or the story that I'm hearing and the story that I'm telling is that I cannot fail, right? So there's a safe path. And one of these, like one of these clients, I should not have even known that they were looking for somebody, but I happened to open up my phone on a day that I don't open up my phone and was looking at a thing that was totally unrelated and it popped up. And I just sent an email because I was like, oh, maybe I'll know somebody who can, you know, help them with this and had a conversation and got offered like double what he usually pays people to do it. And anyway, that one was one of those like little ringing bells from the universe that I was like, I don't, I don't know why. And this makes zero sense, but I need to, I need to listen to this and at least have a conversation. So, yeah, I'm feeling kind of torn and unclear and there's part of me that I just, yeah, I'm questioning myself all over the place in terms of what, what and how and. And just help me understand torn, what, what's the I'm torn part? Well, just what to do, right? Like, do I, do I go with this path that's sort of logical that I've figured out that there's a little bit of magic, right? In this one piece that, you know, this guy just sort of showed up, you know, totally unculled and yeah, no, it's, it's one of those where it's like, this is something I should be doing. It's not to say that I couldn't also work with them and do the other side of things. It's just, there's. So, and what's for me a little bit more with the other side of things? It, to do the thing that I've never been able to figure out, right? The, like, doing my own thing. Right. And the thing that I have attempted to do multiple times over the past decade and never really gotten traction and never been fully clear. And do you know what that thing is now or no? No. You're like, there's something else that I don't know what it is and I don't know how to execute it. Is that right? It's mostly just that I don't know what it is. Oh, okay. That I'm still, and that's part of, I decided to, so next week is Equinox and I'm going to take the afternoon and I'm going to do an Equinox ceremony and I'm going to finally burn those damn prayers that have been sitting on my altar. That's so good. And then I'm going to take the week of TechFest, like you talked about, like, early, early on. So, I'm shutting down. I'm giving myself a chance to sit. And my original intention with that when I scheduled it was maybe I'll come out the tail end of it with a little bit of clarity around what is next. Okay, let me ask, first of all, why do you have to wait a week to know what's next? Well, because there's so much stuff that I just don't have time to slow down and stop right now. Well, what if you get your clarity now that you don't have to slow down? Is that an option? Hey, universe, I want to decide my next step now and it's beautiful that you've scheduled time and do that anyway. And you don't have to wait. You don't have to wait for anything. Because the time is now. So, when I ask you, like, what is your next best step with this client? What does your gut tell you? What you mean with? With the offer that you were given. Technically, I haven't gotten it yet. Okay. I'm pretty sure that if I came back to him and said, yes, I am absolutely interested. I told him I needed to. I had just slightly on our call yesterday. Okay, he also needs to talk to he's got he's talking to a couple of other people. So, and how long is that commitment? It's ongoing. Okay, so it's like, the last person who was helping you was the last person who was helping him with his stuff was, I think, working with him for two and a half years, something like that, and just got busy enough that he decided to, he needed to focus somewhere else. And how does the idea of it feel to you? It's great, but it's only like 10 to 15 hours a month. So? So, it gives you time to do other things? Yeah. Isn't that what you want? No, and I, like I said, I see that one being the possibility of like, either of these directions that I go, that probably is, is sort of a no brainer. Because also, like, he, the, the connections and the network, and he's, he's incredibly smart. And he's like, he talks to his, this project would be connecting, I would be helping him connect with a whole bunch of other really smart people who are working on just incredible stuff. It was, that was sort of one of those, like, I have no idea why. It makes like zero sense, but it's super easy. Like, I can do this stuff in my sleep. Okay. So, super easy, no idea why this kind of came in a serendipitous way. What would be the downside? Just questioning the amount of time that I'd have in any given, you know, whatever. Here's, here's what I believe. You don't have to believe this, but here's what I believe. That we can't know the why. You don't know why this is happening. It might look like it's happening for one reason, it might be a total other thing. If, if we have the impulse, if there's the yes, we have to follow it. You don't know where this could lead. Okay. When you're talking about it, your energy lit up. And then the other thing I heard you say is, I cannot fail. But if, if I go and do my thing, like. Well, what about. Whatever. Period. Not if this or if that, that you just are not available for failure. And now it depends how you determine failure. Yeah. Right. But if you know that your life is your evolution, is your tapestry. You can't fail no matter what you do. Yeah. The failure is more of a, there's a financial imperative. Like I said, whether it's a story, whether it's a conditioned belief, whether, whatever it is. There is a, like, we need me to either, either we have really shitty options that I don't even want to consider, or I need to start bringing in money and not in like little tiny. Don't know when it's coming. Can't, you know, can't depend on it. Yeah. So is that another motivator for saying yes to this? There's the secure, some secure money coming in. Not enough. Okay. Not even close. But some. Some, yeah. No, and I think that's my answer for that is I should just email and then be like, hey, as long as you know, you know, as long as you're still open to this, let's do it. It's the other pieces, like, because, you know, like I said, that's a, it's not an insignificant drop in the bucket, but it's, you know, it's not, that is not going to get us where we need to be. Sure. I get that. And you're not yet quite clear on what you're saying is. So the time that it might take you to decide and to implement and to execute might be a little bit longer. Correct. Which I don't feel like I have. And there's part of me that doesn't want to put that pressure on it. Because I don't want to, like, snuff it out before I even give it a chance to. But also I don't want to keep kicking the can on the road, right? I've been trying to figure this out for a decade. And, you know, how many times am I going to run into roadblocks or health or, you know, whatever, and again, be like, oh, I'll keep working on this. Yeah. So you get to really decide. The thing is, nothing is permanent. Right. You, you get to say yes to something and you're allowed to change your mind. I did actually write an email to my current client who I'm supposed to be ending with at the end of the month to be like, what if I said I was going to do this? And I was like, no, I'm not going to do this. I'm not going to do this. I'm not going to do this. I'm not going to do this. And I thought the same thing. I was like, I, you know, the divine feminine reserves the right to change your mind. And what if you radically, like, what if you go into the extreme embrace of that? I'm no longer needing to logically figure it out, but listening to the impulse, following it, because here's the thing, it's that those breadcrumbs is what opens up doors. Trying to figure something out. I don't know how long has it worked for you so far. Follow the energy, follow the energy. Follow the energy. The other, you know, there's a potential mentor who I also similarly like should never have run into her, but ran across her stuff just randomly. Had a conversation a couple weeks ago. It would be a fairly significant investment. And again, like, I am pretty damn sure that if I work with her, she's going to help me get clear on the crap that I hadn't been able to get clear on for a decade. But also, like, not having that money right now. And especially, you know, that was sort of what started all of this is I was like, all right, so there's this thing and I'm thinking about doing it, but, you know, I want to make sure that we're okay to sort of, like, overextend ourselves for a brief period of time. And then, yeah, he looked closer at stuff that he should have been looking closer at. Whereas he was like, yeah, we'll figure it out and then came back. I can't remember. So the energy for there, too, is just, yeah, I don't know that I can. I'm having a hard time trusting that things will work. With such a giant, like, energetic pit underneath me if I jump and don't make it all the way across, if that makes sense. So what would be the worst thing if you didn't make it all the way? Like, what does not making it all the way across look like? Bankruptcy, potentially losing our house. Like, that is, you know, connected to my parents and it's not, you know, it's not just impacting me. It's, you know, we no longer have a home. We, you know, but, yeah, it just, like I said, that was the reason I was like, we're putting a pin in this because I don't want to, I do not want to see it anymore. So you cannot fail. And I see a way to, you know, to not, but it just, like I said, it feels like punting on the thing that I'm actually here to do somehow, or I don't know if that's a story, right? If I sort of had immediate, okay, so what if I did one, two, three? Then that would get us where we need to be for right now. Like, is that actually the thing I'm supposed to be doing? Well, the thing you're supposed to be doing is the thing you choose to do. Right? Often people think, oh, my purpose, like it's somewhere outside. And then once it hits me in the head and then I'll know. I don't know if that's, maybe that works for some people like that. In my experience, it's through doing, through action that we reveal more truth. Not through, like stillness is also required. But the biggest requirement that I see is the listening and responding piece. We have to listen and we have to respond. Not this figuring it out piece. That will be an obstacle. So it's like, what is your, just your next incremental step? I'll email this guy and be like, yeah, sure. Because he, he listed, you know, he told me the rates that he'd been paying. And he's like, what do you think about that? And I was like, well, significantly lower than my usual rates. And he's like, well, what are your usual rates? And so I was like, well, for this kind of work, it's this. And for, you know, for my writing, then I was like, it's this. And for my consulting work, it's this. And, you know, five minutes later in our conversation, he's like, what if I just paid you your current rates? And I almost was like, but what about less? I stopped myself because I did. I almost, there was this part of me that was like, but that's too much. And I was like, you shut up. It's like, just stop. If he offered you this, like, so I'm celebrating that, that I did not open my mouth and undercut what I had just said. I'm celebrating that too. So what if that's just your new norm? But also like, anyway, yes. It's feeling all sorts of. Too many directions and yeah. So what I'm hearing is that you need money. And you're afraid that if you take a little bit of money and a little bit of a job, that you're not going to fulfill your purpose. That, yeah, it seems a little bit like that. If I make it just enough. Well, and so I would say this comes back to more about, like, how committed are you to that? Right? To the thing. Because no one can take that away from you. The more that you're choosing to, to be essentially to be in an energy of. Of yourself, really of your true nature. That's that's the thing. That's the only thing our purpose is revealed from that. And that's why people, I think, have such a hard time finding their purpose, because they're not being their true selves. And they're looking outside of themselves for the purpose and the purpose is who they be. Not what they do. So the more that you line up your activities, your behavior, your choices with the true self. Not the condition self. That's the path. That's the path. That's the path. Does that land with you? It does. It does, because I pretty constantly have tried to put the meaning on the doing. Yeah, it's almost like a flip, like a 180, right? Like a flip a whole different paradigm. Which is great, because we know we need to do something different to get a different result. So, yeah, I think that's a really good point. I think that's a really good point. I think that's a really good point. I think that's a really good point. I think that's a really good point. I think that's a really good point. I think that's a really good point. I think that's a really good point. 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So, isn't it beautiful how the universe is supporting you in all of your requests? It used slightly less wind, but we're good. We made it. All right. It's complete for today. Thank you. Light ahead to all that you're embracing this week. Val. Um, let me, I'm going to press the button that says ask to unmute. There we go. Am I unmuted now? Yes. Thank you. Okay. Hi. Hi. Would you like to acknowledge or celebrate? I'd like to acknowledge first and celebrate that. I set my alarm for 8 o'clock and I rolled out of bed and came to while listening and remembering. Oh, yeah, I committed to this and be here for it. So, yeah, I'm here. And sometimes it looks like, you know, not with the camera on, but we're still doing it. So, yeah, I'm glad I'm here too. Last week was a good exercise in continuing the work without the group. Um. And it was actually, I was flying solo, so to speak, not just because of the Tuesday call, not, you know, having our spring break. I just had to emergency cancel my pretty weakly standing acupuncture appointment. Because of an unseen emergency that came up, and so it's interesting to just try it differently. And it helped me change my script a little bit that I need to cling to so much of this healing modality or being in this support group. You know, these are tools and life gave me an option to just lift those, just choose differently. This week is different and I felt pretty good about it. So that was a good exercise. Um. So that was a positive experience. And as of today, I can just feel the having fallen back to sleep without that structure. And so this is perfect timing because here's the structure and reminding me to stay awake. Because this is what I've chosen. This is what I choose. And hearing all y'all just helped, as it so often does, me to crystallize what I'm celebrating and what my ask might look like for support. I'm celebrating a fantastic job in choosing self-care from going to a hot springs spontaneously to getting back on my regularly scheduled medications. That had slipped and it caught up to me. I felt without that baseline support. So that's a third area that I can identify wasn't within my normal structure of support is my med taking had slipped. I revisited thoughts that were just recurring and so far as not feeling safe. And for me, that looked like I need to sell this house when my mom passes and I need to move to Mexico. I've had a flirtation with and it isn't not a possibility, but it was pretty extreme. So as I come back into myself and my body and my mind are, I'm going to say recalibrating, resettling to my healthy baseline for me. I can also see that my concerns are valid and right now I have chosen and I get to continue showing up as being the support person for my mother and that means also myself. I felt a little frustrated that things seem to be in a holding pattern and I'm also recognizing that because I have been unsure, actually not willing. I really don't really want to just yet take up what I'm doing. Just yet take up work. Things haven't been moving forward on a couple easy job solutions that would bring in some income. So Jessica's sounds similar to me as well. And so realizing that, hey, I can choose. If it feels like a hit and even if I don't know, so what? Just try it. You can always try different. What that might open up, who knows? And to stop being in my head so much about it. It's interesting. I'm looking at my notes and I filled in the blank. I am no longer available for an indecision pops up. Or indecision. Yeah, it's exhausting. Oh, God, it totally is. Because I can always choose differently again, right? And change your mind. Newsflash, right? Like, I don't know if we've been taught that. Yeah, almost like, oh, my God, I'm gonna make this decision in my whole life. It's resting on this. And then no wonder it's so hard to make a choice because we tell ourselves that it's like pass or fail, good or bad. You know, and that's what I love what Jessica said about just I cannot fail, period. I cannot fail if I do this or if I it's like, what if it was just my life is my success that I am successful no matter how it looks. And when we make that decision, that being the ultimate decision that we know whatever micro choice that we take and step if it is that. From that alignment, that's where I believe we can't fail. Even if it looks like it for a moment. We can't always picture, right? We can't always what? The big picture. So we take a moment of our life and we identify with it and create a lot of distress and suffering around that. Because we don't know where things are leading us to. Right. So I'm sure all of us could take a moment in our life, like, whether it's this moment right now or look back and be like, oh, my God, that was horrific. But that's not who you are and that's not your whole life. Thank you. Yeah. It's not who I am and that is not my whole life. And we get to choose again. It's again. Yeah. Yeah, I was just thinking, you know, I could have more grace around that, but it's like why do I have to have grace around it? This is just how it is. Like, we're on, I can't, you know. What is there to have grace around? It's about being human. Wow. Okay, that's good. I didn't have to be high minded about it or even spiritual. It's just, I guess, new flesh, human. There is no spiritual. There is no unspiritual. There's just this experience. That was, that might be my takeaway. Yeah. If we stop delineating, right? Oh, this is spiritual, this is human. What? What is that? It's all human or it's all spiritual, but there's no division. That's the ego mind of separation. Oh, well, I can think about it spiritually. It's like, it's just experience. It's just life. A false dichotomy. Right. Not even two sides of the same coin. Just coin. Coin. Coin. Oh, I love this. Thank you. That was, that's a fun little pop. Yeah. So, sorry, I feel like I diverged you. What's it? It's okay. Yeah. So, I guess, for me, remembering that breadcrumbs are what open up the doors. If I just follow the energy. I know this last week, I actually did come to a clarification for me that I would like, it was something like, merry work, a merriness to it, merriment, where I can choose. I lose a spaciousness of time when I choose to do it and when I choose to take time for myself. And then there's a couple of iterations of that that I have on the table that I'm on the table that I'm, I'm realizing, oh, this actually matches up, lovely, lovely, you know, like being a chauffeur for people who want to go to the wine valley and, you know, being on call and I can say yes or no and I can say, well, that doesn't work for me today. So, yeah, this is, there's nothing wrong here. And similarly with seeing if this massage healing path that I have embarked on and what that might look like, because my numbness in my right hand, this is behind my left knee, some things are coming up for me that I'm like, well, I don't know if I have what that takes, but then I'm realizing there's so many ways that can work. And so there's a possibility for me to do a 30 minute session for veterans, get paid $110 an hour and the rest of the hour is setting up charting intake. And again, that's like a big economy through an app and I can respond to it or not. And so there's one more step I need to do to step that process forward. So I feel like I have some really good next steps that are incremental and I can always choose different or not now or today is not about that. Today is about my mom just got, we just got delivery on a hospital bed last week and that's proven to be really positive. It's very interesting, the process of being present and choosing that again and again. Decline is such an interesting thing because you don't know where that horizon point will meet. So showing up for this moment is really what I'm practicing. And when I was not following my meds, I really realized things that I would do to put myself in the present would be like cooking, gardening, things that distracted my monkey mind. I've added in just a minute of meditation twice a day. Just so I can say, oh, there's the monkey mind. And then outside of meditation going, oh, wow, she's, she's everywhere. Okay, so I can choose not to engage in that. That's been a great little nudge. So I guess my, I feel like my support is this right here right now. You know, continue taking care of life. I was going to say the mundane, neither. Whether that looks like taxes or my dentist appointment later or, you know, got the car taken care of. I just, I'm getting to the things that I've delayed or deferred. And even as I say that, I can feel how I'm making that incidental when really it's not, you know, staying to be where I've chosen. Because I, I also had epiphanies this week as I was driving around looking for a job. And I was like, oh, my God, I'm not going to be able to find a job. I'm not going to be able to find a job. I'm not going to be able to find a job. I also had epiphanies this week as I was driving around looking at these pretty places and other neighborhoods and meeting for friends. And it's like, I have a notion that where I live now, this is my parents, you know, beautiful place that somehow I haven't chosen to make it mine, or it doesn't feel like mine. And I might choose differently. And I, if I just entertain that, I'm looking around going, holy shit. There's nothing else like this out there. Holy shit. What I might be able to leverage doesn't get me near to what I want or what I have. And kind of realizing, well, what if my current scenario is exactly what, you know, I choose to be here. I would choose to be here even if it wasn't my scenario and I get to. And if it no longer works for me, I can choose differently. And there's no actual deadline. Yeah. Other than the pressure, right? Yeah. I have some pretty nice, realistic scripts that run through my head and it isn't really serving me well. If it comes to it, I can act on it. But the and, I'm still here right now. Yeah. So it sounds like what you're really taking away is choice, is it's life, all of it, and that you just get to follow the knowing. Yeah. Even when it doesn't feel like knowing anymore. And some of that may be the call-response lag time between the two. Well, here's the thing. Sometimes if we're asking for knowing, we think it's around the thing that we want the answer to. I just don't have the answer. It's like, well, you're not meant to know that. You're meant to listen to the knowing. The knowing is go get a cup of tea. Right. The knowing isn't always there for the thing we want the knowing around. Because that's true. We're trying to leapfrog over to it. Our ego is like, but I want to know this. But our self is like, but the thing you need to do is this. No, no, no, no. I need to know this. But the thing you need to do is this. No, no, no. I need to know. And so we're not following the order of things. Yes. My hierarchy or structure of what should take priority. Right. So again, that's a script. That's the ego. We need to know the answers now. So this is the out of balance masculine instead of working the divine feminine, which allows us to practice the energy of faith, of trust, of deeper listening, of responding. Got it. Yeah. Is that helpful? It is a bit. There's something there like I might want to nestle into that a little bit more. I give really good lip service to divine feminine. Well, I'm going to talk about it right now because that's what Jillian's question is around. So I'll answer her question and hopefully that will support you and everybody a little bit deeper. Does that sound good? It does. Thank you. You're welcome. So I'm going to play this audio and you guys give me a thumbs down. If you can't hear it, just give me a thumbs down. Like if it's really not working. Tech isn't my forte yet. My question is related to the masculine and feminine energies. I'm definitely masculine and balanced is the whole work, including myself, seeing that you described exactly in the audio clip. And Melanie, I'm interested in connecting more with my feminine energy. And I wanted to get the context of being quite challenged by this through life because of associating it with being an object for men. And just like as soon as there's makeup and nice clothes and whatever, I'm getting catcalled by men or approached by men and not really wanting them to come and talk to me and stuff like that. So I have a real struggle with that and would be interested in your insight to that. Thank you. Okay. Were you able to hear that? Yes. So. We can talk about the divine feminine and the divine masculine energies in a way. So that's the polarity. I think most of us are out of whack in both arenas. And our culture, our society really highlights the out of balance masculine, right? The go, the push, the hustle, the do the like to keep going, keep pushing, keep, keep, keep all of that. And so it has become very difficult to understand how to live in this world without trying really hard, without pushing, without figuring out, without it being logical, practical. So the divine feminine has atrophied in most of us. I'm not speaking male, female here. I'm speaking of the energies, right? Whether we're male, female, however we identify. What I'm speaking about is the energy. So the divine feminine is everything we reject. The divine feminine, all the parts of ourselves that we want to hide and run from and cover up, we haven't honored her. So instead, we hold shame inside of us because we haven't transmuted this energy. So we hold the energy of shame, of powerlessness, of victimization because we haven't fully owned our wholeness, our completeness, those shadow parts, the dark places, the places that we were told, don't let anyone see that. Or we told ourselves, no one should ever know that about me, or I will be rejected, or I won't be loved, or I'm too much, or I'm too this, I'm too that. The divine feminine is complete surrender. Doesn't mean we're passive. Surrender is not the same as complacency or passivity or procrastination, just to be clear. Surrender to me is faith. And faith is our deep connection to that which we truly are and to the actual laws of the universe, not the man-made human conditioned beliefs and programs around hard work, around money, around how things work. On this 3D, like in this 3D realm, humans have constructed a reality that actually isn't real. So let's look at money because that's something we all have to deal with. We can't avoid it. It's an energy. Money is neutral. And yet money, the idea, what we project onto money is what breaks up marriages. It's what gives people heart attacks. It's what creates deep amounts of stress and tension in our lives. But really, money is not, it's not anything. And now, like we don't have, I don't actually have any money. I don't know if you guys have like dollar bills under your mattress and stuff. I actually don't have any money, zero, not even a penny. I don't own any money. I have a computer log and I go to and I see some numbers on a screen and those numbers will either like raise my blood pressure or make it OK, right? But those are numbers on a screen and you move that decimal this way or that way, more stress and tension goes up, less stress and tension. So this is how we project our power onto things externally. Money is a big one. Because it's real, right? Well, everything, OK, we can talk about these spiritual concepts, but that's real. Yes. And so this is how we can go out of balance in both the divine masculine and the divine feminine. We start giving our power over to things that are not real and we make our decisions from that place instead of the decisions from the inner knowing, the inner knowing, listening and responding is listening, receiving the knowing. And if we don't receive the knowing, it's either because it's not time to know it or we're not hearing it. It's there. We're not hearing it. Either we're too much in our head or we haven't slowed down. We haven't stopped. That's not the only way we get to hear the knowing, by the way. But often if we're conditioned into being in our ego mind, it will often require doing the opposite, meaning stop, listen, slow down, breathe, pay attention because the ego mind is so strong and loud. And it will be convincing of any reality that we choose. Sorry, that's not correct. It will convince us of any reality we don't choose. Actually, that's the conditioned one. To choose a different reality is creative. That is the divine feminine. It's our creative power and potential. So, if we want to be creative beings, which we just are, we create all day long. We're either creating into the positive or creating into the negative, but we're creating all day long. The feminine creates. She is creation. So, we've disconnected from our ability to create a reality through our choices, through our thoughts, through our beliefs, through our posture, through our actions. We've forgotten that we are imaginators. I just made up that word, I think. But we are imaginators. We imagine. And we have that potential. And in fact, it's our birthright. And in fact, it's a requirement for us to imagine, to create. We're doing it by default all day long. So, to harness that creative, feminine, divine energy, that Shakti power, first of all, we need to be conscious when we're not. And then second, we have to start to dream again, to vision, to go beyond the day-to-day practical, logical, what we see. What we see is not reality. It's part of it. It's not all of it. And we confuse those things. So, back to your question, Jillian, about wanting to disown the divine feminine because of, like I said, things like makeup and getting catcalled and those things that have become not things that we wanted to do. Those are like, first of all, makeup. All of that is not the divine feminine. It can be, like how we beautify, but we're already fucking beautiful. Like, there's nothing more you need to do. You can if you want. There's nothing wrong with that at all. But where is it motivated from? Is it motivated from lack and like not enoughness or is it motivated from I want to adorn this body temple? Second thing, catcalling. What I would say is we get to choose our point of view about that. I know I definitely have like aversion to being catcalled and like, how dare you and how rude. Meanwhile, maybe it's just the way that lower, I'm just going to say it like this, lower consciousness men show their appreciation. That they're genuinely like, wow, that's how they appreciate. We don't have to take it. But what I would say, Jillian, is it's not a problem with the catcalling. It's a problem about not standing in your fierceness and saying, don't treat me like that. Don't talk to me like that. That is not acceptable. Or fuck off like if that muscle was exercised, then it doesn't matter what people do because A, it's not about you. And B, you know that you're going to respond exactly how you want to in that situation. So catcall away and you can either be like, thank you or you can be like, go fuck yourself. Again, like there's no right or wrong, but what do you want? Who do you want to be? It doesn't matter what they're doing. It matters who you're being. Matters who you're being. And that, I think, is the purest form of the divine feminines, recognizing I am creating who I be. People will be doing what they do and create who they be. But my sovereignty lies only in this moment and in who I am right now. This is my freedom. It's here and now. And nobody and nothing can take the power away from me. I feel like Whitney Houston right now. But it's like nobody, nobody can really take anything from us when it is who we are. But we've forgotten who we are and we think we're all of the programs and conditioning. And we've even taught other people that that's who we are through our own behavior. So, the divine feminine is about accepting and embracing all parts, the shadow parts, the dark parts. That's Kali, right? The dark goddess. She's not afraid. She is like, bring it. Bring it. Because I cannot fail. Because I have faith. That whatever is happening in my life is here for me. I don't have to like it. I don't have to agree with it. But this is here to evolve me. And I'm going to use it. I'm going to digest it. I'm going to swallow it and spit out the parts that I don't want. But I'm going to use the energy of what is in this moment for my greatest happiness. What is in this moment for my greatest and highest and best. To me, that is the actual surrender. Surrender isn't lying down dead and being like, oh, God, I guess I can't do anything. Oh, well, no. Surrender is the complete swallowing of what is. The complete absorption of what is. So that you digest it fully. That you throw everything into the fire and it gets alchemized. It gets completely transformed. Because you have made it so. That your word becomes actualized. I am no longer available for. I will no longer tolerate. Fill in the blank. That that deep knowing and surrender becomes the divine masculine in action. See how it works together? We can't just be in our head and in an out of balance masculine. The divine masculine is the warrior. The warrior. And we need both the divine feminine, the complete faith. The complete surrender to what is. To listen. Okay, in this. Now what? That inspiration comes and we take the action. So it's our responsibility to look at these energies in our life and see how they are. Wreaking havoc when out of balance. When not harnessed. When not actually utilized even. Because we're unconscious. So the first step is awareness. We start paying attention to what we believe is the obstacle. And then we begin listening deeper and responding. Is that helpful? Well, we'll leave it there for today. Bring your bring your questions, bring your celebrations, bring your offerings. And you can return to this replay. I know Nicole's catching the replay here on the video and Jillian also today. But light ahead. And yeah, I would invite you to explore this energy of the divine feminine this week and just see what comes up and bring your questions and keep this dialogue going. It's very important. All right, feel free to unmute yourself. We can say a collective goodbye. Much love. Thanks again, Melanie. Bye. I'm ready to go. Bring it. Even. Bye, y'all. Bye.