why i hate valentines day

The speaker discusses their experiences on Valentine's Day, expressing their frustration with the holiday and the events that occurred. They also mention their decision to delete Snapchat and take a break from smoking weed for nine days in order to focus on personal growth and productivity. The speaker encourages others to step out of their comfort zones and get things done. They also mention having a court date and needing to address certain situations. I think my favorite part, well not my favorite, but one of my favorite parts about being 21 is that I can sit here and say that I am enjoying a nice bottle of wine without getting in trouble. Like that would just annoy me so much. Like I had to seriously act like I was around children 24-7 when I wanted to like post something on social media. Especially being a sorority. Oh my god I dropped that shit so fast. But when I was in a sorority we couldn't post anything. There could not be beer in the picture. We could not show that we were in a frat basement. Like we were seriously living under like preschool laws. I don't know. Anyways what's up guys it's me again. I tried to post every Tuesday, well my only episode was on a Tuesday so I was like okay we're going to make this a Tuesday thing. Well yesterday was a Tuesday but yesterday was also the infamous February 14th aka Valentine's Day. And Valentine's Day was like any other day to me. It really was never a big deal. I'm single so it just felt like any other day. But as the day went on, I'm not going to lie, when I was getting ready for work and I saw this man bringing his girlfriend flowers and a teddy bear I did get a little bit sad. So I'm here to talk about how it needs to be normalized that Valentine's Day should be about any sort of love. Not just romantic love because I know for a fact I'm not the only person that's single out there. And I know for a fact I'm not the only person that kind of got down yesterday. Now I'll tell you why I got down. It really wasn't the fact that he was bringing his girlfriend flowers and a teddy bear. Although I do long for that. And last year when I was in a relationship I was brought a little teddy bear but we were in like a huge fight so it didn't even matter. And now I got rid of the teddy bear because we aren't together. So last Valentine's Day was a shit show. I don't know I just had really bad luck with Valentine's Day. Whatever like seriously now that I'm thinking about it like whoa. Let's just rewind. Yesterday I'm getting ready for work. I start at Olive Garden. I was getting ready to make that bank. And I walk into work and I don't see my name on the list of like my table section. So I go up to my manager. Let's call him Fred. I say hey Fred what the fuck is up? Why don't I see my name? He goes oh Gabby which by the way don't call me that. Just need to get that out there. I do not go by Gabby. I've said that to him so many times. But he just likes to push my buttons. So he says oh Gabby you're food running today. Uh no I'm not. No I'm fucking not. I simply walked my ass right out. And I will tell you why. Not because I'm an entitled snob and I deserve to serve. No because I had it. I had multiple friends coming to see me that night so that I could serve them. And I was so excited about it. Like I was going to get them free soups, free salad, free dessert. And then I had to go and cancel on all my friends because I was food running. Which I was not about to do. Like I had a huge task I could be studying for. So yeah I simply walked out. That just really irked me. Like I was so ready. I had my cute Valentine's Day earrings in. Ugh. Hold on. Yeah that was me chugging wine. Bitch. Fred. So anyways I leave work and I'm like okay you know what? God did not want me to make money today. That's okay I'll door dash and make some money. As I'm door dashing I take a little toke. Yeah. Yeah. You know. And I decide to go to good old Kroger and get myself some flowers because it's Valentine's Day. You know what? Like I might as well just treat myself to some flowers. So I walk into Kroger and I see that the flowers are $35. I'm sorry what? I love myself but I don't love myself that much. You know what I'm saying? So I waddle on over to the food aisle because you know if I can't get flowers I might as well get some Cheez-Its. Because I've been really craving the Cheez-It puffs. Which I don't even know if I can say I've been craving them because I haven't even tried them. I've just been wanting to try them. So I check out or I get the Cheez-Its and then I go back to the flowers because I'm like you know what? I came here to get flowers. My fat ass. I can't just walk out with a bag of chips. I might as well get the flowers. So at the bottom of the bucket I see these like wilted dead ass like four tulips and a little flower thing. And it was $10. I was like you know what? I'll take it. Like they're pretty. They're not that pretty but they're pretty. So I go to checkout. My total is $13 and I go to swipe my card and it declines. So I go the fuck? So I go to my bank account and I see that there's money in it. Like I can see that there's a number. I am not tweaking. I am not that broke. And I tell her like can I try swiping it again? Or can you type in my number manually? And she leans in and she's like act like you're giving me your card number. And I was like act like? Does that mean that I'm about to get this for free? So I give her my card number thinking she's not actually writing it down. Until I realize she was and she says thank you have a good night. Thank you have a good night ma'am she says. You know what Sharon? I won't. I won't have a good night. Because here I am on Valentine's Day buying myself some dead flowers. And then my card decides to just not work. So no Sharon I won't have a good night. God hold on. That was actually so sad. Like walking out of that Kroger was like the walk of shame times ten y'all. So anyways I get back to my door dashing. I take a few more hits because at this point I am just so sad y'all. I am so sad. And I get a door dash to Crumble Cookie. Which if you don't know what that is it's like an insomnia cookie. It's a cookie place whatever. And I go to pick up Tyler's order. And I go to pick up Tyler's order. And you know I am high as fuck. These cookies look bomb as hell. So by the way I have cash in my hand at this point. So I go you know what fuck it let's get a New York cheesecake cookie. Best fucking cookie I have ever had. Way better than those stupid ass cheese it puffs. I shit you not I sat in my car like moaning eating this cookie. I forgot that Tyler's order was also in my car. So yeah Tyler got his door dash a little late but I don't give a fuck. At least Tyler has someone to celebrate his Valentine's Day with. Anyways enough about the Valentine's Day spiel. I am actually over it. It was a great day. It was a great night. No it wasn't. No I can't even like say that with a straight face. It was a horrible Valentine's Day. And next year I am going to post a picture of my dog and say my Valentine. Because Valentine's Day needs to seriously start being about love and not romantic relationships. Because not everybody has a priv- you know what? No. I was about to say not everyone has the privilege of being in a relationship. But I am so happy alone. And that is not even sarcastic. I don't want a relationship. Not right now. Not anytime soon. That actually led me to my next point. So I've been in like full Capricorn like hard working growth mode. Right? Excuse me. There's like something in my mouth. Got it. And so last night as I was high and I was like on Snapchat. I realized to myself as I was clicking through these people that I don't even know stories. I was like what am I doing? I am wasting so much time on this app. So this high thought eventually led me to deleting Snapchat. So I deleted it this morning. I am deleting it for 9 days to simply focus on myself. And 9 days does not sound like a lot to some people. But do it. How about you do it? How about you delete it and try it for 9 days? Because I am telling you right now it is hard. And I've done it for 5 days and it was like hard. And it was nice. Like I felt really like detoxed after. But for these 9 days I am really going to take the time where I would be on my phone. I also forgot to mention I am not smoking for 9 days. Which if you know me that is so hard. Okay? That is so hard. But when it's hard and when it's uncomfortable that comes with growth. So literally even right now it's 9.47 PM and I am recording a podcast. You know what I would have been doing any other day? I would have been smoking and watching a dumb show. Or just laying here dumb as fuck staring at my ceiling. Like weed has it's benefits for me. But not when I am using it too much. Or when I am using it as a distraction. Or when I haven't gotten my work done. So today was day 1 without Snapchat. And honestly like I can't really tell a big difference. Because I was super busy today with school and work. But even after I got home from work I actually like studied for my test tomorrow. And guys like I actually paid attention in class today. Like it was crazy. So I encourage everyone listening. AKA the two people. Molly and Isabella. I don't know I am just assuming you guys are listening. And if you are not that is really awkward. Anyways I encourage everyone to do one thing this week. To just get yourself out of your comfort zone. Because this is going to be so hard for me. But I know that like first of all it is only 9 days. And I am going to get so much done in these next 9 days. Like I have been putting off some serious shit. Like some serious. Like I want to say it but honestly I don't even want the cops to be listening. Let's just say I may. Okay now that I say that it sounds like I killed someone. So I might as well just say it. Let's just say. I have been putting off a court date for a very long time. Because of some situations. And I may or may not have a warrant. What? Wait what? Officer I am going to court you can calm the fuck down. So anyways point being I deleted snap to get some serious crap done. And I am really looking forward to it. Like even right now I am sober and it is 949. Okay that actually sounds really sad. I was going to be like oh my god I am sober and it is 949 pm. Mom and dad I swear to god I am so okay. Alright look at me I am taking a break. Okay period. So anyways. Where does that lead me? I don't know how to pause this thing. I am using a new like editing device right now. And honestly I am scared that if I pause it I won't be able to like restart. But I don't know what to talk about next. So let me just figure this out. Hello? Oh why is it still going? Okay. Oh why is it still going? I want it to. Oh okay. Alright some technical difficulties happened there. But I just wanted to end off this episode by saying. Thank you for listening to my rant. Remember if you are like me and if you didn't have a valentine. It is okay because you are your own valentine. I know this sounds cheesy but I mean this from the bottom of my heart. You are with yourself until the end of time. And what I have learned recently is that you have to truly love yourself. Before you can love anybody else. And you attract what you are. So be that best version of yourself. And that best person will come for you. Next week I am hoping to have a friend or my sister on. Because I feel like this can be a lot more entertaining. A lot more entertaining with another voice. I feel like I am really good at bouncing off other people's energy. But for right now you guys just get me. So that is why I hate Valentine's Day. Oh. Yeah I am just going to be straight up. I have been sitting here for way too long trying to edit that. So this is so unprofessional. But good thing I am unprofessional. Have a great weekend and make it a great weekend. What it is not even the weekend. Oh shit. I also have to go to the gym at 630 in the morning tomorrow. Because I told my sister I would go with her before my 8am. So wish me luck. And just remember y'all. Life is what you make it man. Okay peace.