the good the bad the ugly the redemption

The speaker discusses the themes of good, bad, ugly, and liberation in life. They express frustration with people who don't take responsibility for their actions and criticize others. The speaker offers a platform for discussion but no one takes them up on the offer. They feel betrayed but are determined to move forward and not let others' opinions affect them. The speaker acknowledges their mistakes and is unapologetic about their past actions. They emphasize the importance of self-awareness and not letting others define one's worth. You ain't going to like me sober. You will not like me sober. So let's get into it. So losses the good, the bad, the ugly, then the redemption. So what do you do? After so many sorry's, what do you do? What do you do? After so many sorry's, what do you do? Trust me, trust me, I'm begging you to tell me, please. You know I know. Trust me. What do you do after so many sorry's? After so many sorry's, what do you do? You keep letting people look at you a certain way, even when you create a platform where motherfuckers can come in there and tell you about how they feel they still don't have a boss, right? So what do you do? And this is why I say life is hard. So what do you do? The good, the bad, the ugly, and then the liberation. The good is what? The babies, right? The good is that you have good health. The good is that you have a place to stay. The good is that you have means to take care of whatever vices that you have. That's the good. The bad is, where do we start? The bad is, tell you the truth, it's family. That's the bad. That's the most bad. The bad is being upset, right? You're just upset at this point. You know what I mean? And you get past it, right? You fucking get past it. People don't really care. So why should you care? That's the bad, because you expect people to care. But at the end of the day, they don't give a fuck, nigga. They will stick you under the bus. I guarantee you them niggas will drive you fucking under the bus. You understand? So don't waste no time on it. And I know that's hard to hear, but don't waste no motherfucking time on it. That's the bad part about it. The bad part about it is you got to deal with it. And you got to go through it. What's the ugly part? The ugly part is surviving, right? The ugly part is trying to survive out of everything that's been done to you. That's the ugly part. Because it's still personally bad, but the ugly part is trying to survive out of everything. With motherfuckers telling you that you fucked up. That's the ugly part. The ugly part is listening to people's reactions about where you stand in life. That's the ugly part. That's the ugly part. That's the ugliest part of everything. And you don't even have to have a response to them, right? You don't have to have a response to them. You can just sit up there and listen to them. And they say, this is what you did. This is what you said. This is what's going on. That's the ugly part of it. Now, we get the liberation. Now, fuck what you're talking about. Fuck what you're talking about. Fuck what you're talking about. I'm at my point. I'm at my stage in life where I feel like that when it comes my time, it's going to be my time. I survived enough. I survived enough. So, what am I talking about? And people think I'm talking about anything. But at the end of the day, no. This is real. It's really real. You ain't going to like me sober. You will not like me sober. And niggas will talk. I'm telling you, these motherfuckers, they don't even have legs and lips. They have tapping shoes. Tapping shoes. I'm talking about these motherfuckers were dead. They worse than strippers. Because they will talk. And they going to talk. They don't have nothing else to do but talk. But when you invite them to a platform where you can say anything you want to say, just talk. Go ahead. Talk. Headphones right there. You can say anything. Nobody wants to say nothing. Nobody wants to say nothing. Because it's personal when it comes to them. You understand? The good, the bad, the ugly, and the liberation. That's what it is. When do you get enough? Somebody can say, oh, you supposed to be doing this at this point in your life. Somebody supposed to be saying that you should be doing this. Right? This is where I was when I was your age. This is where I was. This is where I was. Yeah. What state of mind were you in? Because right now, you're not that person. You're not. So when did you get to that point and when did you realize that something was wrong? When did you get there? You don't even know. Because you believe in life so much that you think that the little things are the things that matter. That's what you believe in and you buy it. You buy into that shit. Man, cut it out, man. The good, the bad, and the ugly, and the liberation. The liberation is what? I invite anybody to come down here and sit with me. I got two mics. Don't nobody want to come down here and sit with me. Nobody. Especially people that is personal. Nobody. Want to talk? Let's talk. Come on. Come on. Let's talk. They don't want to talk. Of course they don't want to talk. Oh, you got a big mouth. But everybody I accuse anything of has stolen from me. That's the truth. But I'm okay with it now. I'm okay with it. I'm not making no excuses about my situation or anything. I'm okay with it. I'm okay with my woman finding out that I did something on her. I'm okay with that. I'm okay with that. I don't try to hide anything at this point. So what do you do now? You keep sitting around and talking about somebody that did something. That's just all it fucking is that you talk about. That's it. And you hold on to it. You live with that because you try to justify your bullshit. You try to justify your bullshit. And when I offer you a way to get out of it. To talk to me. And say what you have to say. You ain't got the balls to fucking sit up here and talk to me. You don't have the balls. That's why you'll always lose. That's why you'll always lose. And I don't give a fuck about what anybody got to say. That's why you'll always lose. I don't offer four or five motherfuckers to come on here and talk to me. Nobody grab the mic. Nobody. Nobody says shit. But they care. Right? They care so much. Oh my God. They love you so much. That is so hard to see you going through all these things that you're going through. Right? They care so much. Man. Listen. Please. We know these niggas. We knew them a long time ago. We knew them a whole long time ago. Fucking hours. Years ago we knew these motherfuckers. About what they are. We call them shaky butts. That's what we call them. We call them shaky butts. You want to know why? Because they'll dance for anybody. Anybody. They will dance for anybody that says yes. Or anybody that has a dollar. They will dance for them. And they'll go super duper hard too. Just to go on you, they'll go super duper hard. Trust me. They will. You would think these niggas don't even have no backbone. No backbone. At all. They will tell you anything. In order to make themselves feel like, yeah. Yeah, we comfortable. They'll tell you anything. They'll lie. They'll blame. They'll put anything on your motherfucking shoulders in order to get them out of it. In order to get them out of it. And they will. I offer plenty of niggas to come on here. I got two mics. Two mics. I said come on here and talk to me. Talk to me live so we can record it. Talk to me live. Nobody came through. Not one person came through. People say they're going to come through. But not one person came through. Because everybody that I offered, in a way, yeah. They did me dirty too. But I'm over it. Not one person offered to come through here and talk to me on a platform where it can be publicly exposed. Not one person. One. Not one. You know what they said? Oh yeah, you should do that. Yeah, you should go ahead and do that, man. I think that'll be the right thing. And this and that. I called motherfuckers that said come through here on Wednesday or Tuesday or Thursday or Friday. They said yeah, but do I expect them to come through? Probably not. Because I ain't shit. And that's how they treated me. Like I wasn't shit. Like I wasn't nothing. So now what? Oh, you should learn how to be a snake. That's what they tell you. You know what? You got got. So you should learn how to be a snake. I'm not a snake. I'm sorry. I don't know how to do that. I'm sorry. I don't know how to do that. You should learn how to not give a fuck. I'm sorry. I don't know how to do that. I don't know how to do that. I don't. Women don't mean nothing to be like that. They mean shit to you. They mean shit to you. You care. I don't. You love it. You love it. You love the spotlight. I don't. I don't. So what do you do? At this point, what do you do? Right? You go through it. And you live with the shit that comes to you. And you understand that. At the end of the day, you might not be in the place that you want to be. But you understand it. You understand why you're there. You understand why the mistakes. You understand the mistakes that you made. And you understand where you have been in life. You understand that shit. But at the end of the day, that's not you. That is not you. That is not you. Now, where you fuck up at is where you sit up there and you say that, damn, this is me. No, it's not you. It's not you. It took all of this for you to go through what you did to go through. I don't give a fuck about my wife and how she feels. I know the reason why I feel how I feel. She's not interested in understanding or having a conversation. I don't give a fuck. These motherfuckers will sit up there and they will talk about. Let me tell you, they don't even. Like I said, they don't even talk behind your back. They set traps. And I offer anybody to sit up here. I got two mics. I offer anybody to sit up here and talk to me. Because guess what? I did more for any of them niggas. Any of them. But won't nobody come sit down here and talk to me. And I'm in my dad's basement. And I'm 42 years old. In my fucking dad's basement. I'm not embarrassed about nothing. God. God. God. Them niggas talk. They talkers, man. I'm telling you, these niggas deserve. And they're too stupid to have a blog. They talkers, man. All they do is talk. They can't even judge. All they do is talk. Talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk. They won't say it to your face, though. They'll say it when they're intoxicated. They won't say it when they need something from you. They damn sure won't say that. They definitely won't say that. But they'll say it. They'll say it when it's beneficial. They'll talk. That's all they do is talk. But they'll never put you in a position to where you can gain from that. They'll never do that. Because they don't want to see you gain. Let me tell you something. When a motherfucker is in a position to where you can gain before them. Oh, no. Hell, no. They don't want to see you gain anything. Because you are the punching bag. You are the punching bag. And they will talk all fucking day about you. Until they can't talk no more. Them motherfuckers will talk. So, what do you do? The good, the bad, the ugly. And then. What? After everything. After everything. How much more do you have to go through when you hear niggas constantly. I'm talking about constantly. Constantly. Like these niggas will. These niggas will kick you. These motherfuckers will kick you when you're down. They will watch you when you're down. They will watch you everything. And they will talk to every nigga that done that shit to you. Right? And they will agree with them motherfuckers. Right? They will do all of that. And then put the blame on you and say. You were wrong because you allowed yourself to get played. Right? You allowed yourself to get played. But at the end of the day. These niggas stole. They stole. They stole from you. You have somebody that you consider to be a loved one. Right? Somebody that you care for at the end of the day. That you'll do anything for. And these niggas will agree with them. How is that even possible? Right? But somebody on the outside looking in. That you don't even know. You don't even have no ties to. At all. You don't even have no ties to these motherfuckers. But you will agree with them. And say. Why would you say that about me? Because it's the truth. Because it's the fucking truth. Why? It's the truth. You ain't going to like me sober. I'm cool with it. You ain't going to like me sober. But I'm cool with it. Niggas be happy. Motherfuckers be happy. When they see you fall. But they took everything that you had to offer. They took everything that you had to offer. Everything that you had to offer. They took it. They took it. And they ran with it. And then they called you stupid. For offering it to them. For offering it to them. That's a fact. They took it. And they will steal from you. They will steal from you. And it ain't about no money. Fuck the money. They look at the money. It's not about the money. They look at the money. The money. You can get it back. You get the bread back. The time. You stole my time. You made me think that you was somebody that you wasn't. That's what I can't get back. You the master thief. You are a master at what you do. And you're good at it too. You're great at it. You're the best at it. You might as well get a fucking tattoo saying master thief. You are the best at what you do. But you know what? I'm going to tell you how good God is. God is going to get you later on down the line. That's why you'll never be happy. That's why somewhere down the line somebody is going to get you. It ain't my job to get you. You got me. Cool. That's cool. You got me. I'm a sucker. Let's say I'm a sucker. Okay. I'm a motherfucker sucker. You got me. But somebody down the line is going to get you. And you're going to care. You're going to fucking cry. You're going to sit up there and try to make amends. You're going to sit up there and try to say every fucking thing that you can say out your mouth. But guess what? That person is going to recognize you for what you are. And it's not going to change. Nothing is going to change. You can say anything you want. Apologize and sit up there. You can buy anything you want. It's not going to change because they're going to see you for what you are. The good, the bad, the ugly. What do you do? For real, for real. I offer pleading motherfuckers to come on. Come on and talk to me. Come on and talk to me. I got two mics. Nobody sat in that chair yet. Nobody. Them niggas will talk though. I'm telling you. It's the worst in the world. They will talk. They ain't got nothing. Them motherfuckers don't even have legs for lifts. They got wheels. So what do you do? After a while, you just get tired. Don't you? You know, when your soul starts hurting. Just think about it. When your soul starts hurting. Because you care. You care so much. Right? You care so much and you just try to understand. Thank you. You try to figure out what you did wrong. You try to figure out what you did wrong. Now what did I do? That was so bad that these niggas feel like this. And I'm 42 years old. So what did you do that was so bad that these niggas won't even sit down and have a conversation with you? Meanwhile, you done gave these niggas everything. Everything in the world. Everything. And they look at you like you a piece of shit. You ain't nothing. You're not nothing. But I hold a woman in high regard. I hold a snitch in high regard. A rat in high regard. A sucker ass nigga in high regard. But you, you the nigga that had a job all your life. Don't have no motherfucking background problems or nothing. Nigga you about to get a job any day now. It's coming. But they'll look at you like you're the sucker. Where? Where do we stand? We don't stand nowhere. There's no standing. There's no fucking standing. These niggas will steal your soul. Do you understand that? They will take your fucking soul if you allow them. If you allow them. Because they don't have a leg to stand on. They don't have a leg to stand on. And they will tell you anything to make you feel like you don't have a leg to stand on. But at the end of the day, nah, I ain't that weak. I'm not that weak at all. You are. We talking turkey, right? Let's talk turkey. You are. You gave up. You gave up. And you want me to feel like you. You want me to feel like you. I invite anybody to come on and sit in this microphone and tell me anything they want to tell me about me. Because I can almost guarantee you anybody that I invite on this microphone will tell me that damn dog you did. You did do that. You know what? You right. You did do that. These niggas are suckers, man. Like I said before on my redemption podcast. Give me the girls. The girls are way thorougher than these niggas. They lie. These niggas don't even lie. They live lies. Start calling them motherfuckers LL, whatever their name is. They lie. And they want to see you fucked up. So what do they do? They go behind your back and they talk shit. That's what they do. Trust me, that's what they do. They don't get any enjoyment out of their personal life. But they get enjoyment out of understanding that, you know what? I know this nigga is fucked up. I know he's fucked up so let me blast him. And that's the truth. That's the absolute truth. They will talk about you till you're dead in the ground. And then say, I told them. I told them. I tried to tell him to stop doing this and stop doing that. And I tried to tell him every time he was doing it. I tried to tell him. But you never tried to help that man. You know you didn't. You know you didn't. You get enjoyment out of it. You love it. You love it. My mom passed away in 2016. This is a fact. My mom passed away. She left me $100,000. My sister $100,000. My brother $100,000. And my dad over $200,000. You know what we did when we got that money? We all went our separate ways. Nobody tried to do business. Nobody tried to do nothing. And where it all fell through, we blamed each other. That's what we did. We didn't come together to try to start no business. We didn't do anything. Everything came together. He ran over there. I ran over there. He ran down there. She ran up there. Guess what happened when we came back? It was gone. All of it was gone. All of it. That's a fact. That's not me lying. That's the truth. Anybody can sit on this other side of the mic and say the same thing. That's a fact. We all went our separate ways instead of staying together. That's what she wanted. But we didn't do that. It was a joke. Her funeral was damn near a joke. Everything was a joke. It was a joke. It was a joke. You think I'm going to sit up here and take care? Somebody sit up here and tell me what I'm supposed to do at the end of the day. We keep making the same mistakes over and over again. Over and over again. The good, the bad, the ugly. Liberation. The good, the bad, the ugly. When you get liberated from this bullshit that you're going through. When do you get to that point? You don't. Unless you're able to acknowledge about what you're doing. Do you know what acknowledgement is? Acknowledgement is, you know what? I was wrong. I was wrong. I should have never did that. I should have never said that shit. I should have never handled that situation that way. Acknowledgement is, man, I should have never told that person that. I should have never talked to that person behind your back without talking to you first. I should have never did that. Shit is a fucking joke. It's a joke and I'm telling you right now. It ain't even a motherfucking joke like a, like a joke like, you know, like you fucking. It's not even that kind of joke. Like it's a joke like, man, you sick, man. You sick, man, man. You fucking sick then, dog. Like you fucking sick, man. You don't even get it. You don't even get it. You'll talk. You'll talk about somebody that has your best interest in heart. And you'll sit up there and go behind their back and talk about everything. Every fucking day. And they'll be able to sleep. Without drinking. They're not even pussies. They're not even women. They're not even women because even the women that I deal with that I've done dirty. At least they got the balls to tell me the fucking truth. These niggas don't even have the balls to tell you what they really think. They'll just go behind your back and tell you about something else. About somebody else. That feels the same way they feel. They don't even have the fucking balls to tell you anything. I don't even have the balls to tell you they're not going to do shit. They love life too much. They love it too much. Everything is good for them. They don't have the balls to actually do nothing that's going to be detrimental to them. They don't have the fucking balls to do that. So what do they do? They put stains on you. You can call it paint. You can call it whatever you want. They throw stains on you. To where when they come back somebody else will be like, oh yeah I see that red color. I see that purple color. You said he had purple didn't you? You said that shit. You know what? How did he get the purple on him? They don't know you threw it on me. They don't know you threw it on me behind my back. They don't know that. But you did it. And you're not man enough to stand behind it. You're not man enough to stand behind it and say that. I don't fuck with this nigga. This is what's going to happen. But you'll cover a snake. A nigga that actually stole. You'll cover him. I ain't never stole nothing in my life. Ever. I think I took some waters from Acne or Super G or some shit like that. I ain't never burnt nobody. I don't owe nobody no money. I ain't never stole nothing in my life. Even the niggas that I dealt business with. When they burnt the people that we were doing business with. I fucking paid it. I ain't never stole a dime in my fucking life. And that's on my mom. You don't get no points for that nigga. Oh you the sucker. You should have stole. Maybe you should have stole. But you don't get no points for that. And I'm not looking for no points. But I ain't never steal a dime from nobody. Nobody can call Tommy a thief. Nobody. Not one person. Not one fucking person can call me a thief. You don't get no respect for that. You know what you get respect for? When you're able to steal and get away with it. That's what you get respect for. Oh bitch yeah. I had to rob Peter to pay Paul. I had to do what I had to do. That's what you get respect for. When do we get to a point where damn when does it kick in where morals mean something. When. It don't mean nothing. That's why God is going to deal with you in time. Trust me. He's going to deal with you in time. You think that person living high and almighty and everything is all good. No. He's suffering on the inside. I can take my time. I don't have anything. I lost everything. I don't have nothing. So guess what. I start all over again and I know how to do it this time. You still got shit. So you still have things that's able to take being able to take away from you. I don't. I don't at all. So who's going to be the biggest loser? Me and you. It ain't going to be me. I lost everything. In your eyes. In your eyes. I lost everything. My kids. My house. My cars. Everything. My jewelry. Everything. Clothes. Everything. I gave that shit away. You don't even know the half of it. I gave that shit away. I gave it away. You don't even know the half of it. So before you quick to judge me look at yourself before you start holding on to some shit that don't mean nothing. It ain't going to get you nowhere. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Let them talk. Let them keep talking. Let them keep talking. I sat up there and I watched my mama pass away and she didn't even pass away from a sickness. I can't say that but she didn't even pass away. She passed away like on her way home from work. And we all know that she was probably over the fucking job. She actually tried to sue the job. Nobody cared. Nobody cared. Nobody. But guess what she did? She did what she thought she had to do. Love the grandbaby. Knew that they were the best thing that she had. Best thing that she had. As far as me, as far as her and her husband, I can't speak on that. And I won't speak on that. But as far as her grandbabies, she made sure that we was okay. As far as her kids and the grandbabies, she made sure that we were okay. And when you look at what she has left us, and this is where we are at right now, it's sad. It's fucking sad. We never even deserved her. We never even deserved her. It's sickening to see where we're at. Knowing how short life is, it's fucking sickening to sit up here and see where we're at. Where we don't even have the balls or the pussy enough to sit up here and take care of each other. You know what we do? We don't even drive, I'm telling you, we don't even fucking stick knives in people's backs. Like I said, we set traps. We set traps. You know what we say? Watch what's going to happen to this nigga. Watch what's going to happen to this nigga. We set traps. You're speaking that shit into existence. That's what the fuck you're doing. And you do it, you do it intentionally. You don't even do it by accident. You speak that shit on another motherfucking grown man. That's your blood though. But somebody that's not your blood, you'll ride with them all day. All fucking day. And you'll do it, and you'll love to do it. That's the crazy thing. You will love to do it. But somebody that's been there for you, somebody that has done anything that they could possibly do for you, you'll sit up there and say, oh, he's a dickhead because he got played. Oh, okay. All right. All right. How'd you feel when you got played? Everybody gets played. But you'll stay with it. In order to kick somebody that's lower than you, you will stay with that shit. The good, the bad, the ugly, liberation. You get tired after a while. You just get tired after a while. Like you get, you don't even get tired. You give up. Really, you give up. God is good. I'm going to pray for everybody. Attitude. Commitment. And perseverance. So we're not really going to, we're not attacking anybody. I don't want anybody that hears this to think that I'm coming at them personally. But at the end of the day, you know what they say. If the shoe fits, put it on. You're not going to like me so. Peace and love.