redemption

You're not going to like me sober, you're not going to like me sober, and it's funny because when you, when, when, when, when you see people, I mean everybody has a vise, everybody got a vise, I don't give a fuck who they are, everybody got a vise, I don't give a fuck who they are, everybody's on something, everybody's doing something, and you know what the craziest thing is man, these motherfuckers here have a robe and a motherfucking gavel, the way they judge people, and sit up here and got the nerve to sit up here and talk about somebody else, this is why I don't fuck with niggas, like give me, give me, give me the girls man, for real, give me the motherfucking girls, because these girls are real, niggas will, they don't even stab you in the back no more, they set traps, niggas don't even stab you in the back no more, they set traps, like booby traps, like spikes, like you know when the cops try to stop you, they set spikes for niggas to fall and fail, and when you listen to them, they try to make the most sense out of it, but you ugly, and you a nut, any time another nigga steals from another nigga, like, and steals from a motherfucker, and, and, and, and, do it, and then try to, fucking make sense out of it, come on now, where do we at, nigga won't ride for you, nigga will steal your money, and what's even worse, they'll steal your time, niggas steal your passion, they'll steal everything about it, redemption, right, how do you redeem yourself after that, ain't no coming back from that, ain't no coming back from that, people are weak, I never stuck, I never motherfucking front for no bitches, never, never, ever, redemption, right, so let's get to the gig, these niggas will kiss your motherfucking ass when you up, but when you down, that motherfuckers can't get enough kicks in, because it was always envy from the start, remember that, it was always envy from the rip, ain't never was really real, when you was doing what you was doing, them motherfuckers was clapping, they wanted to be next to you, but the moment, the moment that you so-called fell off, whoo, they danced, they had a party, you wasn't invited, but they had a party, nigga, they was jamming, playing all the music, all the new music, redemption, so now when you go back and you look at it, when you go back and you look at it, oh, it hurts at first, it stings, niggas can get over, pussy, pussy is pussy, right, pussy is pussy, you can buy it, dick for free, but pussy, you can buy it, so you don't really stunt on what women do, why would you, all it takes is another nigga with enough game to grab your motherfucking bitch, nigga, that's why these bitches ain't shit, they ain't shit, but the men in these situations are way worse, way worse, man, and I had my share of times when I had to deal with my shortcomings, I did, I did, I made a lot of mistakes, but you know what, I, yeah, okay, I'm 42 years old, I'm gonna keep going through this shit, these niggas be bitches, man, I'm telling you, they be bitches, dog, like, like sucka niggas, man, sucka niggas, man, these niggas is like vampires or some shit, like, they suck you fucking dry, and then say, and then turn around and point the motherfucking finger at you and say, oh, you should have did this better, but you took it, you took it, now, when I'm down, or when you down, oh, you should have did better, oh, you should have did this, oh, you should have did that, but nigga, when I was there, you didn't say, yo, bro, don't do that, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, I don't know, just go ahead and chill, man, like, look, let's go ahead and just have a motherfucking drink or some shit like that, you know what they do, they suck you dry, until they can't suck no more, they're worse than women, give me the girls, give me the girls, because one thing about females is they're very emotional, and when their emotions get involved, they care way more, niggas is cold hearted, and they're the worst, a motherfucker can owe you money, and then turn around and motherfucking sit up there and tell you that you ain't shit, because you down, right, they can sit up there and tell you, you not shit, but you owe that nigga money, redemption, right, you ain't gonna like me soon, and these niggas be like the softest, they're the softest niggas, and when I mean soft, I don't mean like soft like you just, you know, you're not fucking, you're not busting your gun type soft, what I'm saying is, I mean soft like, I mean soft like, man, your whole to the core is wet bread, it's mush, you don't get it, because that's what you are, and you know what the worst thing is, a motherfucker that owe you something will kick you, so what do you do from there, you start dealing with niggas how you supposed to deal with them, I'm treating these niggas, I'm treating these niggas, I'm laughing at these niggas, I'm recording these niggas now, straight up man, nah, this is what you said, you say you didn't say it, you said it right here, go ahead, fast forward to seven minutes, when you said that shit, and these niggas, they bomb out over pussy, bomb out over bitches, I sat up there and watched a motherfucking grown ass man, basically waste 24 hours worried about a bitch that don't give a fuck about him, and then blame it on another man, I sat up there and watched a motherfucker steal my motherfucking money, and then tell me I ain't shit, redemption, what do we have, where do we stand at this point, when we can't be real with each other, where do we stand, that's why I don't answer my motherfucking phone, I put that shit on silent, turn that shit off, put that shit on face down, you niggas is too funny, and I'm telling you, these niggas wear dresses, these niggas got pussies on the low, not saying that they physically have a pussy, but that thing between their legs, that shit don't work, that shit don't work at all, men are way worse than women, way worse than women, trust me, they're way worse than women, all day, 24-7, they're way worse than women, that's why niggas are snakes, that's why you can't do good business, you can't do good business because they're so busy watching you, and judging the way you move, and it's all envy on the low at the end of the day, I mean that's the only reason, why would you worry about what another man is doing, especially if it ain't costing you nothing, why would you worry, you got to make yourself look good, you got to make yourself stand out, so you go backbiting, that ain't even backbiting, that's like a cat scratching at the door, it's like Mimi scratching at the fucking door, you know what you want, you got to make yourself feel good, I don't give a fuck about women, never did to be honest with you, and I had to realize that shit myself, I never gave a fuck about women, because me growing up and coming up, man I ain't give a fuck, they never gave a fuck about me, so now when I get a chance to move how I want to move, man I'm doing that shit, man I'm shaking, I'm shaking, man I'm out, but the thing about women is, when you get to them, to the core, they'll see you for what you really are, but a nigga will watch what you got on, they'll watch what you drive, they're gonna wait, all them niggas is patient when it comes to him, they will wait, to see you fall off, they will wait, and they'll throw it up and down, and left and right, they'll throw it every fucking single way, redemption, see God is good, so you've been solid the whole way through, and you just happen to have a space, a gap in your life, where you went left, and you made some mistakes, I won't even call them mistakes, when you went, when you went somewhere else, and it didn't pan out the way you wanted to, that's God's work homie, stop putting stock into these motherfuckers man, why do you care, why do you care, they don't, anything about them, these niggas is funny, I have women in my life, that have shown me more love, than the men in my life, and I don't have a lot of men in my life, that I really depend on, but I don't, at this point in my life, I'm 42 years old, at this point in my life, I don't even fucking look for no guidance, I sit up there, and I watched a nigga dick, I'm telling you niggas be liars, like they're the best liars in the world, I lied too, but I lied to my bitches, you know what I'm saying, like I don't, I don't, I don't lie to niggas, you say you need something man, if I could do it for you, I'm going to do it for you, I'm talking about niggas walk around wearing my clothes, talking shit to me, straight up, I'm dead serious, motherfuckers will walk around, and you done did everything for them niggas, and at the end of the day, their motherfuckers sit up there, and talk about you ain't shit, can't really back it up at all, at all, and I'm going to have my son on here later on, so we're going to do another thing, you won't like me sober, redemption, so how do you redeem yourself, you start slow right, I'm slicing niggas throats, not in a physical way, I ain't threatening nobody, but I'm slicing niggas throats man, get out of here man, I ain't, I ain't cutting you in your legs, you can walk around limping, so you can come back, nah you done, you done, no rap, redemption, start over, look at myself man, it's crazy because I was like 200 something pounds man, two, I think two or five, two or five, man I weighed myself the other day, I was 181, and I'm like damn I ain't even on no diet, stressed, worried about what people would think, worried about what this person's saying, to the point where I didn't even want to go outside, for what, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why are you so worried about what another motherfucker think about you, when all they do is gonna fucking talk anyway, I'm told, you ain't gonna let me sober, I don't give a fuck about what nobody do, nobody, I've killed myself so much on the inside, that I don't have, I don't really have a heart, except for my kids, and my little ones, they know who they are, my nieces and my nephews, I don't have a heart for motherfuckers no more, I don't, I see how sick people are, and I'm not talking about coughing sick, I'm talking about sick in a soul, they have no good intentions at all, everything is to do somebody dirty, everybody has an agenda, and it's sickening, it's really fucking sickening, these niggas be faggots, and fuck that, I can say, I don't have nothing against homosexuals, but when motherfuckers are homosexual, okay, cool, you gay, you say you gay, alright, cool, cool, alright, that's one less nigga looking for a bitch, right, but when you an undercover nigga, I got a problem with that, when you, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers and shit, and you got a problem with that, when you out here on the low, late night, twelve o'clock, one o'clock, and you running into truck drivers Open the door. When a nigga don't fuck with you, open the door. Open the door. You'll see it later on down the line. If you true to yourself, you'll see it later on down the line. Right? It'll come back to you. Everything comes back to you. So whatever you think you're getting away with now, it'll come back. Mm-hmm. It'll come right back. See, I lived, and a lot of people don't understand that when I say that I lived, what I'm saying is I did what I thought I wanted to do to enjoy myself or have fun or live my life. That's what I want. I bought everything that I wanted. But see, it wasn't for me to have it that way. That's why I was snatched back. It wasn't for me to have in that way. I'm telling you, whatever your passion is, man, do that shit. I used to make music, and I was good at it, too. But I thought, oh, man, there ain't no way. I loved it. I fucking loved it, actually. And then when I tried to go this way and tried to say, you know what, let me go over here because they making money over here, so let me try to do what they do. Ah, that's when you went left. That's when niggas sucked you in. Redemption. What do you want? How do you want it? Do you want it just to come in a box, or do you want to build it? How do you want it? You want it easy? Or do you want to motherfucking go section after section, section, block on top of block? I remember hearing somebody say this. You can't build a wall in a day. The only thing you can do is place a brick perfectly every day. And eventually, that brick will lead to a brick wall. Don't try to motherfucking build a wall in a day. You're an alcoholic, right? Okay, let's just say you're on drugs or you're an alcoholic. You think you're an alcoholic. You're an alcoholic, right? Okay, let's just say you're on drugs or you're an alcoholic. You think that you can just stop. Now, you got some people that are strong enough that that's possible. But to the average person, it's not possible. And guess what you're going to get that whole time? The people that's closest to you. And this is why I say, man, you know what the fuck to say it is. Keep your motherfucking friends, enemies closer, whatever. But keep your friends, yeah, you know the motherfucking saying what I'm trying to say. Because they'll torture you. And they'll torture you with a fucking smile. That's the worst thing. I know this nigga don't fuck with me. But at the end of the day, you come with smiles, you come with gifts, you come with drinks, you come with weed, you come happy. I know this nigga don't fuck with me at all. But you, you come like that and then turn around and talk and backbite. I'm not even using that word because I heard a certain person use that word. So I don't even like using backbite. Nigga, you are a garden snake. We don't even see you. I didn't even see you. The grass is cut and you still was able to motherfucking slither. How is that possible? You're good. You are so good at what you do. You're a beast at it. You're so good that niggas don't even judge you for being a motherfucking snake no more. You're really good. And a motherfucker will give you an applause and they'll say, you know what, shit, you had to do it, you had to do it, you had to do it. What? Where's your morals at? Where's your fucking morals at? Redemption. Where are your morals? What do you stand on? What the fuck do you do? You steal. This is why I say niggas ain't shit. This is exactly why I say niggas ain't shit. See a woman gonna tell you, you ain't right. You ain't right. But a nigga will say, shit, you had to do it, you had to do it. Niggas might be a stone cold faggot or some shit like that. And they will sit up there and be like, well, you know, people have dicks. No, nigga, no. You suck the dick, nigga. You did it. You did it. Niggas, I call them shaky butts. Dumb niggas will bend over and squat. For other men's attention. They will. I'm telling you, it's the truth, man. So, you know, how do you redeem yourself after that? How do you even, how can you redeem yourself after that? What do you do after that? You find God. How do you redeem yourself? You can't. You can make strides. You can take strides to try to better yourself. But at the end of the day, morally, you're just a fucked up individual, dog. That's the truth. You're just a fucked up motherfucker, man. Let me tell you something, I gave everything away. Everything. And niggas said, you're stupid. I had a moment in my life where I didn't care anymore. I just didn't care. I gave up. Because I knew it wasn't me. I knew it wasn't right. I knew it wasn't right. I don't care what it looks like on the outside. Oh, a man is supposed to do this and do that, man. Get the fuck out of here. If I'm living with demons. Demons. And I'm not talking about another person. I'm talking about inside of me. If I'm living with demons, what am I doing? The only time I smile is when I see my kids or my nieces or my nephews. Other than that, fuck people, man. These babies. What are we showing these babies? How to do what? Just make it through. Just fucking make it through. That's all you got to do is make it through. No, that's not right. That's not right. You're going to die. Any song that comes on, you dance to it. Even if you don't like the music, you dance to it. And like I said, men are way worse than women. Trust me. Some of these bitches out here is motherfucking feral and shit. They will rock with you, nigga. They won't lie to you. They'll run down on some shit with you. They will. A nigga will run down on some shit with you and turn around and motherfucking rob you. Or turn around and rat and be a motherfucking rat. Or turn around and laugh at you because, oh shit, when we did that, man. You know this? You know that? Get the fuck out of here, man. Seriously. These niggas is easy to read. And that's why these motherfuckers don't like me because at the end of the day, I read you, niggas. I know you're not going to do anything. So, let's keep it all in perspective. You're not going to do shit. You can't do shit. And this is not me threatening anybody or saying like, oh, I'll whoop your ass. No, this is not me saying none of that. All I'm saying is, nigga, you cotton candy. You're cotton candy. You're not going to do anything. Just look at the way, look at how you move. Right? Your whole agenda is based off of other people's opinion. So, you're really not going to do shit. You get around people and you loud. The loudest is the weakest. You see a motherfucker just sitting over there not saying nothing, just agreeing. That's the nigga you got to watch. Redemption. Getting over it. Getting past it. Getting over it. Getting past it. Life is beautiful. Life is beautiful. When you don't chase, life is beautiful. When you don't chase, he says it to you. When you don't chase, you get every fucking thing you want. Trust me. Patience. Ambition. Attitude. Commitment. Persevere. ACP shit. That's when you get what you deserve. But if you keep reaching and trying to grab at everything that you can see, everything that's in front of you is not for you. Patience. It's going to come. You got it. Be good. Be humble. Be spiritual. Pray to who you pray to. And leave it there. Thank God for every day. Don't waste no time. I'm tapped out. Signing off. They ain't going to like me sober. Peace.