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A person shares a story of how they made a mistake by breaking up with their perfect girlfriend and ruining their own life. They reflect on how their girlfriend encouraged them to pursue their passions and they ended up switching majors. They had a happy life together and were even considering marriage, but the person got anxious about giving up their freedom. They eventually decided to come clean and tell their girlfriend they weren't ready for marriage, leading to the breakup. They now regret their decision. Today, I messed up by breaking up with my perfect girlfriend and ruining my own life. I've never felt like more of a selfish idiot. I'm not posting this to get simp. I just don't know where else to turn. I feel like I've taken so many steps backward in life just because of this one idiotic decision and I just can't believe how delusional I was. I met Kelly back when I was in my early twenties. We both worked in a restaurant and were trying to make it through college. Kelly was an animal science major and had dreams of becoming a veterinarian and opening up her own practice. I was just pursuing my degree in computer science because my high school counselor said it was a good idea. I really didn't have much direction. It wasn't until after I met Kelly that I started believing in myself and wanting more of my future. She encouraged me to think bigger and try to think back to the things that made me really happy in life and make those hobbies my career. That's how I ended up switching to a graphic design major and actually getting a degree in something I was interested in. Kelly and I became close friends and then started dating a few months after we met. I fell in love with her easily. She was such a comforting, mellow person. She was wicked smart and incredibly organized. Even though she worked long hours at the restaurant, she never dropped her 4.0 GPA and graduated at the top of her class. We both graduated and managed to find well-paying jobs in our respective fields. We left our serving jobs and signed a lease for our first place together. It was one of the happiest parts of my life and now I find myself reminiscing about those days. I can't believe I had such a perfect woman and I've let her go because of my own idiocy. We had been living together for about two years and had been together for almost five years when Kelly first brought up the topic of marriage. I hadn't really thought about it before and all she asked was whether I saw it as a possibility in our future. I like that she used the word possibility instead of directly pressuring me. I didn't want to lie so I said yes, it's definitely a possibility, yet her questioning kind of stuck with me. And I found myself really thinking about getting married for the first time in my life. I thought about only ever being with one woman for the rest of my life. I thought about only being with one woman for the rest of my life. Our sex life was incredible, but it made me sort of uncomfortable to think about only ever effing another person again for the rest of my life. I loved Kelly, but I started to get anxious about giving up all my freedom and being attached to her forever. I was only 34, but I still felt young and handsome. I didn't want to waste my younger years tied down. The more I thought about it, the more wrong marriage started to feel. About a month after she brought up marriage, I decided that I needed to come clean and tell her that I wasn't ready and I wouldn't be ready any time soon. I knew it would be hard to hear and even harder to come out and say, but I could never have guessed just how wrong things would go for me. Today I messed up by breaking up with my perfect girlfriend and ruining my own life.
