S1 Episode #2 'Gratitude'

The speaker is grateful for the positive feedback on her podcast and expresses her dedication to learning and improving. She discusses her impulsive nature and how it contrasts with her husband's more cautious approach. She talks about her podcast being a platform for open discussion and sharing personal experiences. She shares her excitement about an upcoming trip to Florida, mentioning her love for theme parks and her late best friend who lived there. She reflects on her favorite theme parks and the challenges of visiting popular attractions. You just call on me brother when you need a hand. We all need somebody to lean on. Hi everybody. Welcome to episode 2 of my podcast Lean on Me with Trina. This episode is called Gratitude. First of all I would like to thank all my subscribers and followers and anybody who's listened in any way shape or form. I thank you for that. I thank you for the positive feedback. Nobody has said to me they felt like turning it off after the first two seconds or anything like that so that makes me very happy. I have had a lot of people message me privately and let me know they're excited to see what I'm going to talk about. I've been going through a big learning curve with all of the podcast things, the technical stuff. I've been learning myself everything. When I want to know how to do something I will pour everything I have into it with just reading and learning and looking up everything I possibly can so I can bring you and myself the absolute best I can do. I have spent many many hours listening to podcasts and just trying to gauge how they talk and retain their audience which is very important to me. I really want my listeners to keep coming back and anybody who knows me very well knows that I when I decide to do something I do it. I do not procrastinate. I've been known to make monstrous decisions and not even you know maybe a day I can completely make it happen. If I really want something it is definitely going to happen so I don't know why I'm like that. I think it's partly my ADHD brain. I can't seem to wait for anything and sometimes I don't know how my husband puts up with me but it works and I think him and I are quite opposite. He likes to think about things and plan and you know save if it's something you know that's costly or stuff like that and me I'm just let's do it. We're going to do it and we'll worry about it later so that's how this podcast kind of came about. That's how my clothing brand came about, masonware, different other things I've done in my life you know trips that we go on, things that we do, even day trips, shopping trips, everything is just kind of bang let's do this and we just do it so and it's worked out so far. I think we kind of offset each other a little bit. I get him to like be more adventurous and do things on spur of the moment. He kind of gets me to calm down and look at the big picture and see you know just wait and see how things are going to go. It's hard sometimes because I don't have patience for that because I'm always just living on the fly thinking what if I'm not here tomorrow or what if something happens and I'm not able to do it and like that so and that's one thing I kind of want to talk about and just give my point of view on and the things that I do talk about is totally my point of view and things that I've experienced you know looking at others and stuff like that because I am in no way shape or form on any of these podcasts saying you have to do this and live this way and do that way because I am still making mistakes all the time and that's just part of being a human being and we're just on this earth for a short time and we've all got our own ways of doing things so it's just mostly to you know maybe have things to think about and definitely not saying do things my way ever. Yeah so I decided to do this podcast because I I want to share my feelings on things and just the way I view life I'm I consider myself very you know for the most part happy-go-lucky I am friendly I like to engage in conversation and you know talk to the shy person who you know doesn't always speak up when there's a group of people talking I like it when people come out of their comfort zone and try something different or talk about things that they've never really talked about openly or things that they just have kept quiet about and I think it's nice when people can open up a little bit and you know feel safe to open up like that and discuss things and you know things that they may want or have done and things like that so yeah we do that quite a bit when I'm in groups of people because I will be straight up and talk about things I've been through and I have been through and done a lot of beep in my life I am by no means perfect I have crazy bones and me just like the next person and but for the most part I'm easygoing and just happy I'm you know adventurous and and stuff like that it's really hard doing this podcast kind of because you're just sort of speaking into the air I've got millions of thoughts rolling around in my head and to put it from my head out of my mouth so it sounds together and makes sense is going to be something I'm going to have to work on as I go and I hope that you're all going to grow with me and stay with me and you know if any of you ever want to reach out and be a guest I have special guests lined up but I want to do several episodes before I bring guests in because I really need to find myself on here and I feel comfortable when I'm talking but it's sort of different when you're by yourself in a room headphones on talking into a microphone this is like I said this is all a big learning curve for me but please reach out to me if you have a story that you want to share stories that I really like are and I think my audience will really like is people who have come to a cross point in their life or you know they've been through something traumatic or tragic or you know super good in their life and how they get through it and you know how they've made the changes we only in my opinion I feel like we only get one trip around so it's it's really important that we put everything into this life I booked a trip to Florida less than a week ago I was at work and during one of my breaks I jumped on the computer and just decided to scroll around on Expedia which is my favorite website Expedia.ca and I found the best deal it was a Wednesday night like I said around 3 o'clock in the morning or shortly after just about as cheap as we could drive there so and we'll get to fly and we'll be there in a few hours instead of a day and a half of driving that came on quite suddenly my husband and I had talked about taking a trip this spring we weren't really sure about it and of course my husband being him he was like well I don't know there's stuff we got to do around here and me being me I'm like come on we can do it we'll worry about that stuff later you know so anyways I'm at work and I find this extraordinary deal for our flight and hotel so I call him it's probably you know 20 after 3 in the morning something like that and he answers the phone and I'm like hi Todd were you sleeping and he says yes and I was like well honey I found the best deal on Expedia for us to go on this on a vacation and we can fly and but I didn't bring a credit card with me I don't bring credit cards to work when I go so can you give me a credit card number so I can get this booked and he's like just a minute honey so sleepy so he gets up digs around hauls it the credit card gives me the number and bango we're booked so now as of today today is April 4th we're leaving in 10 days very spur of the moment although we were talking and planning of doing something we hadn't quite decided fully what we were going to do talked about Florida but anyway so it's going to happen in 10 days that is one thing about me I love to just jump on the bandwagon and do it I find the thrill of making everything work is very exciting and I like it so yeah I'm very excited about this trip it's been a year since we've gone and we have been traveling back and forth together since I think 2011 or 2012 I'm not sure one of those but I've been going myself since 2004 so and that's 20 years I've been traveling back and forth to Florida it goes by quickly I had a best friend down there her name was Barb I always called her Barbie girl she was approximately 30 years older than me but one of my truest and very best friends I've ever ever had in my life she was somebody who was so non-judgmental and always there and we talked about everything we shared our lives our paths just everything and I miss her terribly she passed away I think it's been about three years ago I am terrible for keeping track of deaths because it just seems sometimes like time is standing still and other times it seems like a lifetime that they've been gone so putting it in a matter of years and remembering the anniversary is it's hard for me to do that so I don't really block it out but it's just it's a weird thing for me that's all and I miss her terribly I went and visited her many times over the years since 2004 and just our quality time together to me is irreplaceable and completely priceless and I'm looking forward to one day when I get to see her again because she's very missed some of the things I like to do when we go on vacation is theme parks I've been to five of the Disney parks I've been to Universal both the Universal Parks Islands of Adventure and Universal Studios I've been to SeaWorld I've been to Busch Gardens and also Aquatica which is a water park my absolute favorite is Aquatica the water park we go there every single time we go down if not multiple times it is that fun and it's a great day to be outside and I think my favorite theme park is probably Busch Gardens and Universal Studios I think those two are pretty high up there the Disney parks I liked I did not love them I'm not really sure why when I went my daughter was 13 or 14 and I went with one of my best friends her name is Tam and her son came with us of course I think he was 10 or 11 at the time and it was fun but the kids were a little miserable not too much I mean they had fun but what a lot of people don't know is when you go down there it is hot and you are waiting in line for hours you don't see all that when you're seeing the commercials and the little bits and pieces of people going to Disney and everybody talks about Disney it makes it seem like you just get there and you're going on ride after ride and everything's all happy and fun but there's kids crying and siblings fighting and parents getting after their kids like it is it's kind of funny when you sit back and look but it is it's still fun you know but getting off the track here I didn't mean to go on a boat or vacation and trip so much anyway getting back on track what I want to talk about is gratitude and how we can enlighten and make other people's lives better when we are thankful for things and we thank people for stuff and smile and you know express yourself things like that when you're walking along you can smile at somebody like I've said in my intro to me that is so important just smile and if you're out shopping you can say hi to the person that's coming up to you in the aisle way thank the cashier if you're being waited on because a lot of us are forced to go through self checkouts now but you know if a way if a cashier is waiting on you thank them tell them to have a nice day just little things to you know make someone feel better and make them feel grateful you know that you crossed their path make them feel grateful that you have crossed their path I think it's important another thing is reach out to people and call people and message people when you think of them I do that sometimes in the middle of the night when I'm at work I will randomly think of somebody who I may not have talked to for months or weeks it could be a couple of years and if you know we only communicate through Facebook or something I'll get on my messenger and just say hey I've been thinking about you or you know and it's so weird because often when I do that people will write me back and say you know what I've been kind of going through something or you know thank you for reaching out it's nice to know I'm thought of or I was thinking of you the other day too and it's so strange that you just popped in my head that is so important we're all human beings and I feel we're all just doing the best we can to get through life life is not pretty right now there's a lot going on in the world there are genocides taking place there are wars people are dying every single day horrific horrible catastrophes are happening and we are so blessed and fortunate in our lives to have a life and be have a home and have family and be comfortable and not have to worry that we're going to be getting bombed or you know people are going to be ravaging through our house and stealing from us and things like that we have so much to be grateful for and that stems back to my topic today gratitude please be thankful every single day I know it's easier to complain about things than to always be thankful but I really want to push that and let's all be thankful together and reach out and support worthy causes when you see when that GoFundMe pops up on your timeline or you know somebody's going through a hard time or they're getting medical treatment or somebody has died and they're trying to raise funds for a proper funeral or you know so their children or spouse will be taken care of after the fact please if you possibly can try to donate sign the petitions for peace and just try to be the best you can and we will all spread that to others and help them be the best that they can things that are going on the world are really bothering me I cannot for my sanity and well-being I cannot focus a whole lot on it my family is very vocal about things and they haven't come right out and told me but I get feelings that they are not overly impressed that I haven't been more vocal and sharing everything on Facebook and a lot of stuff does not pop up in my timelines or on my news feed so I don't always see everything I am very well and aware that there's a in my opinion it's a genocide going on against the Palestinians I just I like I said I really cannot pour myself into that or I'm going to be sitting in my bed crying and not being able to do anything and in life we have to I think we can support things in different ways without bringing ourselves into the vortex of a depression because I truly know that a lot of people cannot handle certain things it doesn't mean that we don't care as you all know I I said in my episode one that I work at the hospital I'm a CCA in the emergency department there's traumas and a lot of things that I deal with that work we have good very good resources to help us deal with things when they get to be too much but it's a lot and I find that myself I cannot invite much more into my life when it comes to that I can't so I'm gonna leave it at that for that part but I do care and I hope you all are signing petitions and you know reaching out and doing your part when it comes to Israel and Palestine and um so anyways another thing I want to speak of about being thankful for is our families as a lot of you know myself and three of Todd's children were estranged from each other for many years during our relationship it's very hurtful and painful for me to talk about as I'm sure it would be for them as well within the past couple of years we've all gotten together and have apologized for things that were done and said in the past and at this point we could not be closer it is a true true blessing in my life to have Todd's girls in our lives and their spouses and Todd's little grandson Emmett he's a wonderful part of our life I'm glad that we like we have all spent a lot of time together I wouldn't say we're making up for lost time but we are building precious new memories where we began and that's all I can really say so far about that and I'm very happy the way it's been going I consider my husband's three daughters to be three of my very best friends they're wonderful girls they're very beautiful and polite and loving and I'm really just so happy that we are all in each other's lives and I know they are too and so anyways there's so much to be grateful for in this life and sometimes when things seem like they're not going to get any better or it looks like there's no way for things to be fixed or rectify themselves or you know just that there's kind of a lost hope please don't try not to ever think that because there's usually a happy ending somewhere I'm happy to say that because sometimes it just doesn't seem like there's going to be a silver lining and there is so anyway thankful and I hope that in this podcast I have expressed myself and talked about a little bit of both thank you so much for listening to my stories I hope I didn't sound like I was rambling on but I just wanted to share the things that I said today thank you so much again for the follows and subscribing to my YouTube channel I have yet to get a video posted on YouTube but that is going to happen I'm like I said I'm learning to do everything myself so I have to teach myself to get the video uploaded and get it on YouTube that will be coming soon because I'm almost there so thank you again so much for listening to my podcast lean on me with Trina I'm grateful for each and every one of you and I express my profound gratitude to each and every one of you as well thank you for listening till next time bye bye