DOD Remix 1

The person fears for their sister going to New York City, but not for themselves. They fear misconnections with their kids as a single parent and losing their wife. They also fear growing older and losing their parents and other family members. When asked about losing in love, they fear losing the love and respect of their children. They also mention the horrifying fear of physically losing a child, which they keep locked away. The interviewer praises the person for their bravery, particularly in dealing with the loss of their father and sister. The person is humbled and grateful for the compliment. ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ្ទ� For my family and friends, I just fear, like, my sister having to go into New York City all the time now, since it's gotten bad, but I don't fear myself much. I fear for other people. What do you fear losing in love? Well, I fear, um, misconnections with my kids. Being a single dad, raising my kids. And I would fear, of course, losing my wife. That would be a big one. Um, and I, yeah, my kids, you know, um, having distant relationships with them, they don't live around us. Um, so it's hard to see them a lot. And, uh, I think that's about it. My parents are growing older. Obviously, my aunt and family are growing older. So, it's scary as you get older. Well, it might be the next question. Um, what do you fear losing in love? In love? Oh, my children. That's what I thought you'd say, yeah. Yeah, the real love of my children. I mean, the respect. Oh, okay. Of my children, yeah. I thought you meant, um, physically losing a child. Oh, physically losing a child is just beyond, I can't even, I can't even probably go there. I can't, no, oh, no, you're, okay, that's true. I, that fear I keep, I have to keep very much where it needs to be. I don't deny it, but I keep it locked up in one of my little boxes, you know, because that fear is the most horrible fear. I don't think I'd make it through that. So, you're right. Oh, I'm getting cued up. I'm getting cued up. Oh, no, no, that's such a big fear. I can't even tell you it. I didn't even think about it. It's so big that I have to keep it. I have to keep that, you know, I can't think about that every day. I, it's not, I, I'm not a denial person, and I try to be pretty realistic, but it terrifies me. It's terrifying. Thank you for going there. The rest seems very superficial compared to that. Oh, I can if you need me to talk more about it, but. Well, I mean, you have experienced, I mean, I wanted you, I wanted you to talk about loss, but you've experienced the greatest losses of, that a human can suffer, you know, in relatively, just for our audience, my father in 2000, and then my sister in 2005, so that's not very far apart. And that you have been, I asked you in your last interview, did you think you were brave, and this was in the context of being a trailblazer in women's rights, but this is where I think you're the most brave. And the circumstances around my sister's death we could go into, which were terrible, and the subsequent fight for grandchildren and all that stuff, I think you are the bravest person I've ever met. Why are you laughing? Thank you. I'm humbled. It wasn't laugh, laugh, it was thank you.