im so sorry for everything

The person speaking is reflecting on how a guy they met two years ago has changed a lot because of a girl named Mel. They used to apologize a lot but now question if they should apologize at all. They feel like being nice to people hasn't worked out for them as they often get betrayed. They also realize that they have been selfish and never really consider other people's perspectives. They apologize for sleeping in too much and making their friend wait. They express concern about who will take care of their friend when they are not there and apologize for everything. I don't know what to say at all The guy that I met 2 years ago He changed, you know? Changed so much I don't know, so much, so many, I don't know He changed too much Because of a girl It wasn't you It was Mel I used to apologize a lot To the things I did and never did I was not, I was exactly like you The thing that not triggers me the most Is that I apologize too much for the wrong person To the point that I feel Am I really in the right here? Should I be feeling this way? Should I even apologize in the first place? Should I even apologize at all? Then once she left, she made me realize that I wasted my time being nice I think being nice to people isn't working out for me anymore Because all I do is just listen, help, and be nice As a normal fucking human being But I get nothing in return Either get backstabbed Either get betrayed Or get left So I don't know, I didn't notice it Until you say it That I'm selfish And I never view things Even though I'm the one who's wrong and I view it like Yeah, I am right, I'm never gonna apologize Yeah, you were right And I'm sorry for that, that you have to stick with me This side of me, not my past I don't wanna say I've been through a lot Because you were just everything that I wanted But I'm just fucking things up For not doing a simple apology And then again, I feel like Maybe I'm no good for you? I don't know, babe I don't know Maybe it's good talking to myself right now Because you're not hearing this Yet, but I don't know I'm sorry for being selfish You know, I slept in way too much I should've been waking you up at 5pm Like, what the fuck I apologize for making you wait hours Just for me to wake up I apologize for wasting your energy Because you text me and call me the entire time I apologize for you loving this guy Who's being so shitty to you all this time I get it If you wanna take a break I get that But I just need you to know I don't know who else is gonna take care of you While I'm not there Because I don't know if you'll be okay I really don't know if you'll be okay I'm sorry for everything, Michy I'm really sorry I'm sorry