JOEY3

The speaker introduces Episode 3 of Season 3 of the "Burn Barrel" podcast. They apologize for wasting time on Facebook Live and mention topics they plan to discuss, including not seeing their biological mother in 35 years, not being normal, divorce, making something out of nothing, borrowing money, depression, and ADHD. They explain that they want to go by their real name, Joey Leonard. They talk about their failures, bad decisions, and struggles with ADHD. They share their attempts to find their mother, including hiring a private investigator and contacting people with the same name. They express mixed feelings about finding their mother now and share a past email exchange with her. They emphasize that their content is not for everyone and they are not seeking popularity or awards. oh yeah this is the burn barrel episode 3 or season 3 episode 3 just got to do one thing real quick and then uh we'll get it rolling all right yeah baby we are in action dude back in action this is episode 3 of season 3 and we're i was just facebook live there for a minute had to had to do that or whatever was having fun uh talking to the people but uh yeah i think i spent like fucking 45 minutes doing that so i kind of wasted the the time allotment that i had for the burn barrel tonight because now i gotta get up in like fucking five and a half hours and go to work sorry about the last podcast where the audio was all crazy where i'm talking out of the microphone and i'm not doing this i'm not doing that i'm starting i'm getting this shit figured out you know what i mean i you'd think that i would have it already figured out by now but boy not the case not the case at all um wrote down a few topics on the way here so that way like i'd had a little bit of something to talk about because the burn barrel just so you know the burn barrel i'm average joey aka joey leonard aka average joey whatever the fuck i'm trying to go by joey leonard now because that's my fucking name average joey's fun it's a fun thing that i've always that i've always had fun doing but it's like i want to i just want to go by my name now so it's just like because that's my name that's like how i get paid that's how i get in trouble that's how i do the good thing look it's just my fucking name so it's like there ain't really no gimmick to it average joey was just kind of like one of them things but on the burn barrel we typically like to get real deal banana pill like to hit you with some of that shit you don't expect you're like what the fuck is he about to say well all kinds of shit um the first i'm gonna give you i'm gonna give you a skim down a little rundown of what i plan on talking about tonight so that way you can decide whether or not you want to listen all right now it may be it may be a 30 minute podcast it may be fucking 45 minutes it may be 20 minutes i don't know i'm going to go through this list as i wrote it down and then try to you know do that or whatever else but the first thing i'm going to talk about is how i haven't seen my real mother my biological mother in 35 years um the next thing i'm going to talk about is how i can relate and how i know what it's like to not be normal just look at me and there's i'll explain that later i'm going to talk about divorce a little bit i'll talk about making something out of nothing and getting by on the bare minimal in order to make something really great happen um borrowing money i'm going to talk about that and depression and adhd somewhere in there and then we'll end it with something good that's what that's what this episode is going to be about this week so without further ado i don't i never know what that is it without further ado or without further abdue without further a dude i don't fucking know i don't know but haven't seen my mom in 35 years big big big whoopity fucking do right i'm not i wouldn't tell you that it's literally just something to talk about it's content at best but it's also gives you a little tidbit of who the fuck is this guy that's always on our on facebook or in our face or on here trying to do this bullshit right here who the fuck this guy think he is number one just just a regular dude just an average joey out here a little baby kangaroo um i'm a dude that has just enough charisma and just enough gift of gab where i've gotten by my life um but also a dude that makes piss poor decisions and have made tons of piss poor decisions that have resulted in many many many many many failures when i look back on it i'm always like no excuses because i don't try to hear excuses too much when people give them to me so i try not to give them to the fucking world now oftentimes i'll catch myself in a little pocket where i'm like what's what's going on with you right now why are you so upset what the fuck is what's happening right now with you because you know i got having adhd is like you know you can't keep on topic you can't keep on subject so analyzing your problems you know you'll do it really fast sometimes or sometimes you'll do it half fast but i like to think that you know i i have had many failures couple of divorces stuff like that and it's not because of like you know beating up women or or cheated on them or or did whatever else just simply not getting along and i think as a grown up at 40 i'm like all right dude maybe maybe not maybe for sure you're you're a dude that has you know the flip side of that like girls have daddy issues some people like to say well i'm gonna i'm gonna admit to say i'm a dude that probably has a little bit of mommy issues i don't know if there's a technical term for that other than just what that is but i haven't seen her since i was five i remember a whole lot about what she was and who she was and what she was about i've disclosed that and different things but i'm not on that anymore i'm not here to bash my my biological mother but having not being seen her since since i was five i've had a lot of things happen in my life um you know since then just as a kid who's like hey you know like where the fuck did did she go you know i was pretty privy to everything she had going on and pretty pretty used to seeing her and i and i like i really loved her i remember and then one day she was gone and then as an adult now who has had many many things happen and who kind of understands genetics and and characteristics and shit that you're going to get from your parents or or whatever as a dude like i'm like okay now i get it she was she was wired a little she was a little bit fucked up she was wired a little bit fucked up she was okay with some things and not okay with other things and she made bad decisions that were ultimately you know she didn't she decided to not see us anymore and then that was you know part of where i had a hard time processing you know people some people be like get over it you know that's happened to me too or you know i've never known them my parents and you know knowing people like that it does help me be like yeah you know i try not to talk about it a lot because i'm a dude that likes to number one i wear my heart on my sleeve that's a known fact but like also i try not to like i try to get things done within my network within my resources or whatever may have you but but i'm a dude that likes to stay busy because if i sit around and think about these things too much i do get a little bit like a little bit mad and a little bit upset i'm like this motherfucker just didn't ever try to because i tried to find her i've tried to find her before multiple times i've tried to you know um i hired a private investigator and gave him any information i could i just didn't have her social or shit like that but like i caught hell i called up a lady one time i called up every single lady with my mother's name in phoenix arizona i called up every single one of them one day it took me hours dude leaving messages over and over again hey i don't know if you're my mother but i want like my name is joey leonard and blah blah blah blah blah and i haven't seen my you have the same name as my mother i'm just if you might be my mother and then one lady called me back and she was like crying and stuff was like i like i don't know if this is a joke or if you're just prank calling me or whatever i said i'm not prank calling you dude that's my name is joey leonard and i'm looking for my fucking mom and um she's you know she's like that's very sad you know i'll try to you know that's not me i'm not that that age or whatever but they bought the blood it turned it turns out it wasn't it wasn't just like it was it was her and she wasn't telling me it was it just simply wasn't her and um i was like all right i'm never gonna find this motherfucker there's been a few people on my facebook i won't lie to you there's been a few people on my facebook where i'm like they have the same first name but not the same last name they kind of look like her and i'm like is that her and she don't say nothing and she's kind of like fucking watching me because when i do like the obituary search there's so many people with her name i'm not gonna name drop her right now because i don't want motherfuckers going to looking up you know anything um but like maybe she's maybe she's watching maybe she's maybe she's like oh this motherfucker maybe she's afraid to to circle back around and be like hey motherfucker because if she ever did i don't know i feel like that would be a piece that i'd be like whoo because i don't even know what i'd say to her now i remember at a certain point in my life i was like i'm gonna say fuck you to her i'm not gonna ever talk to her i'm not gonna i'm not gonna you know even if she comes back around i remember a long time ago she she emailed me when i was 23 and it and it was like i was getting out of the army and like life wasn't really going fucking good for me so i was i was ornery i was disgruntled she emailed me and she said hey you know i'm at a better spot in my life now and i'm like fuck you basically what i told her i don't know if we talked about this before in a podcast but it's still on my forefront here so we're talking about it now but um but yeah i emailed her back and and i was just like fuck you you know like i remember all these things about you and i described them all vividly and she came back and she's like oh boy you think you got that fire in your blood you got it from me and blah blah blah and i'm like oh i know i got that fucking fire in my blood from you you crazy woman act like i don't know that i'd like to uh like to talk to her now especially when i get i get down and out right like so my my content and my stuff isn't for everybody i'm not trying to win fucking popularity contest i'm not trying to win awards i'm not trying to do something but one thing i found out that helps me is when i can help somebody else right like and then i hear other motherfuckers that are like yo i've been through this shit i've done this shit i've whatever like they they help me because i'm like damn you know it kind of gives you that somebody else been doing it too because again nobody's asked to be here so understanding that what the fuck's going on all the time is not just that easy you're not just gonna always understand exactly what the fuck's going on you know what i mean and i don't know if i can help a motherfucker out in any possible way i like to run through the the things here and and talk to them about it because there's a lot of people that they simply want to fuck it in their life they want to end their life and they don't understand exactly what's happening and it's based on other shit and where you you know where you would think i'd like where i've even almost been mad at my real biological mother i have a stepmother who i love who's you know who's you know not replaced that thing but who's always been there pretty much for me since i was in kindergarten but i still think about it though i'm like damn it makes me think about people that don't know who their parents are and have never experienced the kids that have been adopted and stuff like that or their parents passed away and stuff like that that's why i like i like hearing those stories from people and watching people that are walking through these little small fires and they're and they're making it through because because you're a general crowd of people that you interacted with like let's say in high school where we were really growing up a lot of people will still they'll they'll like hold you to whatever you were in that time frame and be like that's just how they are or whatever but the thing is is growing up you know like you're gonna grow up until you like you know you might not i wear flat bill hats and fucking vans and i got hand tattoos and i skydive and i do all these other fucking things and podcasts and comedy and and shit like that but like i don't even know what the fuck point i was saying but like along the way you know when you're growing up here is like trials and tribulations and i like to talk to people about where they've been and what they've been through because it encourages other people and you know we're always going through some bullshit uh seems like my type of people my crowd we're always going through some bullshit that's self self-sabotage self-induced and that's where it comes down to you know some people can't they get so tired of that they'll they'll commit suicide they some people get so tired of it they'll take medication some people get so tired of it they they have uh this repetitive nature about them to where they're just constantly doing it and then the only thing that's really changing is the color of their hair they're getting grayer their wrinkles are getting their skin they're just doing the same thing and they're content because they just have accepted it that that's just how they are me i'm on this dying ever this never dying like i will die before i ever give up on it but i'm always trying to fucking be better dude i have fucked off a lot of things i'm behind on a lot of things but it's because i got so far behind i didn't realize how far i was behind on every fucking thing until i stopped drinking beer i'm not telling you to stop drinking beer i still hang out with people that drink beer i still hang out with people that get fucked up while they're getting fucked up i'm typically eating some edibles or smoking it down and hanging out with them and having my own little fun time but me personally i was getting too fucked up and it was diluting my progress i was getting further and further and further behind and i didn't realize that until i actually tried to straighten up and one thing that i figured out is that i hope i hope i hope i have enough fucking time left which i mean i'm doing things vaping and and and and fucking taking pre-workout and fucking doing monsters and shit like that i know that shit's bad for me skydiving that's a little bit dangerous we gotta we always we always got to try to be better better than what we were you know what i mean and then if you could just cut out certain things that are holding you back and you can try to get get down in this little path of things i think it's easier to to live in your skin it's easier to want to you know hang around and stuff like that it's hard work trying to just be like not normal like it's hard work trying to be a motherfucker that just don't make the right decisions that lives paycheck to paycheck like there's a certain type of motherfucker out there that that we all are on the inside that we don't want to expose the people we kind of keep muzzled but sometimes it grows into this bigger thing it's like we get lazy or we get complacent or or we get you know overzealous or too confident or too cocky or whatever and we get humbled and all these different things that happen in life no matter what no matter where you're at with it dude i think that the always progressing and always passing on a good torch and trying to be a good human it that's important so you know for me not drinking anymore i was like all right dude try to try to hit your max potential try to hit your max potential now now i'm kind of leaning on not smoking but i'm like wow i really enjoy using medical cannabis as a as a medicine as compared to you know say a pharmaceutical why am i against it it's a no-brainer like you those things are horrible they're very crazy in my opinion but they work for some people so it's like that's where i'm always at to each his own i don't know anyways getting add there jumping subjects we're talking about uh my mother haven't seen her in forever cool cool cool anyways divorce you're sitting around right now all right and you you're divorced or you're getting divorced i had a had a buddy hit me up the other day um and he uh he said hey man i you know this actually had two people the other day i just didn't make it to the one i talked to one and didn't make it to the other but two people in one day were like hey man i need to talk to you talk to you one of them didn't ask to talk to me they just kind of threw a post up and i i leaned more towards the one that said they wanted to talk to me specifically but neither here nor there i hit him up and i said what's going on he said dude i'm getting divorced i said damn man that sucks that's my first reaction when somebody says i'm getting divorced i'm like damn that sucks dude you know i hate that for you i'm like why is this motherfucker talking to me right now why why are they around me so i'm always present in the moment because i think that everything lines up for a reason so i'm like all right well well tell me about it and and my buddy was like oh you know this is happening i said did somebody cheat did it is it just like i mean did you fuck her over did she fuck you over something happened no man we just kind of grew apart i'm like well you know number one i can't give you any advice on how to feel better i can't give you advice on how to feel better because i'm not you i don't know how you're going to make yourself feel better some people will simply just to get over one they go get under one some people to get over one it takes them years in this moment after a divorce if you've been together let's say a long period of time and you've grown together but then you've grown apart or whatever you're still going to be together because it's hard it's hard to separate at that point you will make piss poor decisions first thing first is find out if it's real and you'll know if it's real when divorce is real and you want it to happen this is a no problem you're like man get the fuck out of here but when you don't want it to happen motherfuckers start acting a certain type of way they start getting sad they start beating themselves up they don't want to they don't want to you know like they don't want it to happen so they they start acting like a fucking kid pretty much or they start going into these weird things though where they try to go please this other person in little ways that they feel like they should have done before and that you know because in an argument somebody will say well you never do this for me you never do this for me and then that person will remember that then that when that when it's breaking up just like they try to go do that for him thinking they're going to win it back when it's done it's done the hardest part about moving on after you're divorced is the moving on what you got to do is you have to keep yourself busy don't easier said than done but don't try to worry about what they got going on if if you guys are getting divorced and you're still hung up on it just just just go and go go go to the gym get on some sort of good diet go start a hobby go do whatever get the fuck out of there because that's the universe literally saying shit needs to change whether it's for you or for them it's at a point where it's over don't sit in that funk in that little whirlwind of bullshit because that's where motherfuckers die that's where they kill themselves that's where they get too far down where they can't come out of that shit they think they got a problem with themselves because somebody else told you did maybe you fucking did divorce is not a bad thing always it sucks but it's not a bad thing it's just what happens on paper when two motherfuckers don't want to be together anymore that we're married don't let it be this big fucking thing people break up all the time try to make it amicable try to be nice to each other if you can't fucking do that then you have something wrong with you oh well these people act this way they say that within i'm just reacting then no stop stop fucking reacting to them let them do their fucking thing fuck them you know i mean i can't say that loud enough i'm not just gonna skim right through there but i'm i'm working on a little bit of time and i still want to talk about a few things we're at 20 minutes right now but if you're getting divorced the hardest part for you is going to be feeling okay with what's happening maybe they moved on to somebody else and now you're like fucking it just eats you up because they don't want you anymore well motherfucker go become something that you want and it won't matter what they want because clearly you're not loving yourself right now you're letting somebody else's want for you affect you that much and that is not a diss that's just the way it is you can fix that that's not a sentence that's not a life sentence because you're getting divorced if you fucked up fix yourself move along you can do that as many times as you want to there's been people get married five six seven eight times that's just a piece of fucking paper in an agreement where you're like hey blah blah blah this is what we're gonna do there's motherfuckers that never married once they've been in 40 fucking relationships chill out don't don't don't don't don't get all crazy on yourself all right next thing we're going to talk about on the burn barrel baby making something out of nothing and getting by with minimal shit okay somebody said on my on my live earlier i guess i don't know what happens when i'm talking about what's going on in my life or the hardships or stuff like that but somebody on there said hey man that's cap or whatever if you're skydiving you gotta be getting paid to skydiving for me i'm a skydiving coach there was an initial investment i still have debt to skydive number one note that but after you get your license to skydive it doesn't cost but about 30 something dollars if you have your own gear 30 something dollars to do a skydive you can get your gear a multitude of ways you can scavenge and get people to have this left over that and put stuff together and get it for very very very very very cheap or you can go buy something brand new doesn't matter after you get your gear and your license it doesn't cost much to skydive okay i have found out that i enjoy skydiving i was addicted to alcohol that was my thing before i still love alcohol i love the way it smells i just haven't done it in 399 days today is 399 phone's ringing but we're doing the the podcast it's live um can't answer that so let's text them back and tell them we're doing a podcast i said podcast brother you okay because i have a do not disturb so they had to call back twice text me if it's an emergency i don't know where i was okay getting by making something out of nothing and it's funny that um it's funny that this person called me because i'll actually get an opportunity to talk about this person or their their actions right here in just a little bit but doing like the skydiving thing after i made it i found out that i loved it and being addicted to alcohol and not doing that anymore i was spending a lot of money on alcohol money i didn't have and i still technically do that in different senses when i'm gambling on my my two brands or or skydiving or comedy mostly comedy everything i do is mostly around comedies based around comedy setting shows up getting there paying people for this doing this doing that doing whatever else all the time i don't have money it's because every single thing i do costs money so where does that leave you that leaves you to either give up on the thing or make it happen i have a thing inside of me where i'm like man i want this fucking comedy shit to happen dude i want it to fucking happen i'll do whatever it takes i'll sell whatever pawn whatever do whatever borrow whatever do what like like go work hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and drive and be there and do whatever i don't give a fuck as long as i can get to the thing and it's not so i get that fix is because i feel like if i get enough of those under my belt that something will eventually will fucking happen to where i get a bigger opportunity to do my thing it's never been about a paycheck clearly or i would not do it because it's not a smart business move to sit here and gamble and gamble and gamble and gamble on my comedy i will eat the randomest diet that when i can afford it i'll have a lot of rice a lot of chicken and stuff like that and i can line myself up but when i'm getting by i'll eat whatever the fuck's in the cabinet if there's anything in the cabinet and there's days and days and days that go by where you just scrape enough together to get that food that does that's not i'm not sitting here crying poor mouth like that i'm just telling you i'll go all in i'll save every dollar to put it on the thing it cost me 400 to go to texas and i only make 200 cool doing it however i gotta do it it cost me a thousand to go to california and i and i'm and i'm and i make fucking 800 i'm losing 200 doing it i don't give a fuck i'm gonna try to do it because ultimately i got to invest into myself or whatever and i got to make something out of nothing how do you make something out of nothing well you got friends that trust you which you know you got to be a good friend and kind of nurture that if that if that's the case and i haven't been in a few different instances and i and it's it's always a constant trying to trying to make sure you're doing right you know whatever whatever but like it you got people that support you and and and look out for you and take care of you and stuff like that it's like you can you can go for the goal you know what i mean you can you can make something out of nothing if you have that extra little push from from people um from things or whatever if your allotment of time is hustling hustling hustling so you can get money it's hard to stay focused in one thing and then go to another um so i try to just stay available for comedy and when i stay available for comedy oftentimes that that leaves you eating whatever's available that leaves you doing whatever that leaves you taking all your money and putting it on whatever else well people can make the mistake when you put stuff on the social media that how you're doing oh you're doing so good or whatever people like the skydiving thing people like oh man most of you making so much money no like 70 of my last fucking jumps were free because i jumped with somebody and was teaching them how to do something it's coaching trying to make something out of nothing those are they're not pleasant jumps always when you go jump with somebody else i mean it's skydiving whatever whatever it's always fun but it's not like you know you have to you can't go do what you want you got to go do what they want type thing you know whatever else and you're making a progression through the ranks of an instructor like you start out as a coach then you can become an instructor then you start getting really paid money but then you're then you're really like taking people from that don't know how to do anything because i jump with people that have 10 jumps to 100 jumps that's typically who i stick with and then like once i get that that rating i'll be able to take people that have no jumps that come in here and they're like hey i want to learn how to skydive and it's like okay this is your job because comedy until it pops until it pays the bills like until i can do it all the time i have to have something else to do used to be just sitting around fucking drinking and i'll go to my job and go to work and do shit like that which i still fucking work make no mistake but like i'm trying to make something out of nothing with the comedy so i'm just sometimes you sometimes you're gonna have to eat bullshit diet sometimes you're gonna have to go without a lot of things sometimes you're gonna have to do that sometimes you're gonna have to fucking get uncomfortable and sometimes you're gonna have to do like shit you don't even want to do man it ain't nothing different than like a a prostitute or or or you know somebody that made a sexual deal or some sort of deal with the devil you know what i mean i mean i feel like that's the fine line where i'm not going to go do you know what i mean i mean it just depends that twenty dollars is twenty dollars right but on a serious note staying positive and making something out of nothing is that's a hard move but you got to do it you got it you got it you got to stay down in that pocket if you want shit to happen borrowing money we're gonna talk about that because and we're and i'll and i'll go through this really briefly i have borrowed plenty of money in my life i've loaned out 10 times more than that so when i think about that all the times that i've had to borrow to get by to get to the thing because i refuse to like go back you know because if i was like oh man okay i'll just go back to work for nine months or whatever that nine months is nine months gone right so you might be like hey let me hey let me hold a couple dollars let me do whatever the many times i've done that i have loaned out 10 10 10 times i mean that's so many more times much more than that and one thing i've learned about being on both sides of that right there is i had a dude ask me he said hey man what do you recommend if for me to start my brand i said i recommend you work hard save your money do not borrow any money do not borrow any money to do this or it will bite you in the fucking dick maybe not maybe if you're smart it won't if you got a team of investors or a team of management or whatever you've got a great business plan maybe it won't but if you're a regular joe trying to come out of your regular life and you don't have your money management under control and you don't have your your your your money language it you know under wraps you will fail do not borrow anything i've done it it creates bad relations it creates friction turmoil also i mean don't borrow from the bank and then don't borrow from your friends because your friends want to help you your friends want to help you they want you to get by my friends do it all the time but creating friction between you guys after you've done it is like you know maybe maybe you can't make up on your end or whatever hence why you're probably borrowing at the beginning then that's going to create a problem don't fucking borrow anymore in 2024 we're not borrowing no borrowing you can't borrow time and that's what the fuck it costs to pay back money that you borrow you have to fucking spend time unless you just get it off the lottery or you borrow from peter to pay whatever it is you're gonna have to spend time but you cannot borrow to give that back i'm living these things that i'm talking about i'm not just telling you not to do these things all right just because you've got a plan doesn't mean you can borrow somebody else's time anyways moving right along past that we're gonna um we already talked about the depression and the adhd thing um hold on we'll ride by afterwards yeah i'm gonna go see this motherfucker right when i get done he's wide awake so i know that there's a lot of people that are depressed a lot of people got adhd and it's a mainstream thing to talk about it now and stuff like that and we talked about it on previous podcasts and stuff like that but like here's this big papa or big mama whichever one you are you're sitting around you're depressed you're mad as fuck that you have made bad decisions that you keep getting yourself into these same old things part of you wants to change but the other part of you is too solid and set in its ways that's hard and you and you understand this and you're just tired you gotta pay attention to the inclinations that are bouncing around in your brain what's calling you the most when you're at the bottom right there when you're at the bottom right there because that's where you're at is the bottom nothing else matters you're not comfortable in your own skin when you're at the bottom right there i think that you got to go for it whatever your inclinations are bouncing you want to be a vet go be a vet fuck how old you are you want to go to college get a degree i don't care how old you go fucking do it whatever your inclinations are at this time that's a seed that's been planted into you because you are soil at this moment you're at the bottom you're you got to build back doesn't matter if you were a fucking beautiful whatever you're at the you're at the bottom right now and you gotta you gotta get out of it man well man it's not easy being you know it's easy being cheesy and it's hard being hard and it's a hard life that a lot of us live out here because we because of our decision making process gets us in these little slumps and these these predicaments and stuff like that at some point you got to let certain things go and always you need to love yourself it's hard to fucking do man when you're so mad at your your process and the way that you handle things when you have to sit down and look at yourself in the mirror but guess what every single day is an opportunity to not fuck it up oh man everybody's full of shit on these podcasts they want you to fucking listen and everybody wants you to do their thing i don't want you to do a fucking thing i want you to fucking get up tomorrow or whenever you wake up i want you to be so fucking mad at your process that i want you to be so fucking mad at it that you're that you're ready to change it not don't go and fucking kill yourself but you you get fucking fired up and you go fucking change it you do whatever the fuck it takes you break up with that motherfucker you quit that fucking job and you go get a different one you get yourself out of that toxic situation you're in i don't give a fuck don't do shit for nobody else but your process and what you have going on or your kids if you got kids that's your thing i wish i i wish i did it a lot different my kids are grown now so to speak that opportunity is gone for me i'm not telling you to quit your job i guess let me reflect on that i'm telling you if your job is bad for you get the fuck out of there if your relationship is bad for you get the fuck out of there whatever you're doing and your bad habits are bad for you get the fuck out of there it makes the most sense man i wish i could get motivated man i wish i had that in me you got that dog in you you got that dog in you that motherfucker is in there though he's ready to eat you got to get fucking fired up you got to take chances you got to drive to a faraway place to do what you want to do sometimes by yourself too with nothing in your pocket with nothing in your fucking pocket if you have to borrow to get there so fucking be it whatever your inclinations are i'm not i don't recommend it at this point not after doing it along the way and having and i'm still fucking paying back shit you got to be okay with the consequences of your actions but motherfucker you better get rolling get rolling baby we don't sit around stale up in this motherfucker make them surprised over and over and over and over and over again how the fuck do they keep doing this shit how do they keep fucking making it through man because somebody somewhere is mad because of one of your mistakes or one of your mishaps or one of your faults and they want you to fucking fail that's on them man if you're a piece of shit and maybe you deserve it who knows you probably won't even be listening to this but i'm just telling you nothing that you've done unless you're a fucking pedophile nothing you've done unless you're a rapist or some kind of fucking just straight up piece of shit nothing you've done out here is irrecoverable or whatever if that's a word nothing you've done out here can't be fixed you don't own anything that can't be replaced i'm not talking about your children you don't own them that's a person but you don't own anything that can't be replaced you can't lose anything you can't get back again except for your children and your family and your time these are the things that you can't get back again i hope you're making the right decisions if you're fucking not get on that pain train baby let's get this fucking show rolling dude one thing i hate is motherfuckers that get on the internet and they're like let's fucking go let's fucking go let's fucking go because motherfucker it's hard to just i mean god damn shut the fuck up but let's fucking go let's get this shit done next step is to get it done put the plan in action shit's gonna be fucking scary shit's gonna be weird but put it in action the alternative for that is for you to get sour and stale and sit around and fucking maybe off yourself because you didn't keep yourself busy that's the way we get through this shit is we keep ourselves fucking busy and occupied and we do shit constantly if it's mistakes so what you're gonna make more mistakes if you take more chances than the next guy so don't listen to some motherfucker that hasn't made many mistakes it's guaranteed they haven't made that many fucking choices to take that many fucking chances sit around and let these motherfuckers affect you get on your shit i love you guys it's the burn barrel it's the burn barrel season three episode three on joey leonard aka average joey and i'm the fuck out of here hopefully i didn't yell too loud and then maybe this uh maybe this podcast turns out good it's too far in to go back now if it doesn't i'm not going to re-record it i'm going to put it up as is and then uh yeah but i love y'all stay fucking strong stay fucking focused surprise these motherfuckers man i love y'all and we are out of here uh let me get i gotta i gotta stop it at the same time and stop