Moderate to Sever PSTD with Anxiety D1

The speaker shares their experience of being diagnosed with PTSD and anxiety due to being kidnapped by a former partner. They explain how this incident affected their career and led them to seek therapy after many years. They discuss their decision to go to therapy and their concerns about taking medication and owning a firearm. They also mention starting a podcast to share their story and provide support to others. They express their hope to not feel alone in their journey. They end by mentioning their upcoming therapy appointment and their attire for it. Hey, you guys, how's it going? Today is actually my first time writing out my story here to share with you guys because I wanted to actually document my process of going into therapy. And just so we can get started, I was diagnosed with moderate to severe PTSD with anxiety. And one of the root causes why I was diagnosed with this is because 10 years ago when I was finishing up my undergrad, I was kidnapped by someone that I was dating for five months after I broke it off. They kidnapped me shortly after arriving home after class and I was taken from my home for two days and I had to miss two of my midterms, which kind of drew a wedge between me and therapy at the time because I had to rescue myself and during the process of healing, I did seek out the university resource at the time where the therapist recommended me to take a year off to process what had happened to me. But at that time, I was just about to finish my undergrad. It was literally two more months to go. So I decided just to power through and graduate instead of seeking the mental health that I was needing at that time. To share that experience with you, it caused a lot of obstacles in my career path because shortly after graduating, I pursued starting my own business in financial services. Although I did have success with that, I often felt hindered because I was not able to promote as much as I wanted to as a professional, as someone that studied finance, real estate and law and not be able to promote that widely with my name and get full credit for this because the person who had kidnapped me was already out and kept violating the restraining order. So ultimately, it led to me moving and seeking another career path. However, flash forward to present day, after the pandemic, after a lot of career shakedowns, I ended up coming out as an author. And I recently started writing books about finance, things that I'm passionate about. And in that process, I was contacted again. And now it's been over, it's 10 years, and I decided to just pull the plug and just go to therapy. I'm at a position where since writers don't make that much for the first time in my life, I actually, I find myself qualified for these services. So for me, I actually do want to get better. I'm not trying to be here forever. So this is my process. And today, I'm actually going to be going to my first appointment for medicine. And that was actually the reason why I started this recording because I wanted to share some of the things that were going through my head. Because here I have what I would consider a perpetrator trying to find me. And I, for the longest, I've always believed in the Second Amendment. And one of my conflicts was if I were to take medication for trying to get over my paranoia or my anxiety when I'm outside, would that hinder me being able to have my firearm or to own a firearm, more firearms in the future, or whatever. Because I do know, like I'm not the only one that's thinking about this. So that's the reason why I wanted to start this podcast and mostly to just shed some light because I always believe I'm not the first, and I'm most likely not going to be the last. But if there's anything that can be shed so that way people don't feel alone, then that would be great. So stay tuned. I'm literally getting ready for my appointment. It's funny because I'm dressed like those people in those commercials and like those fun dresses and it's like, don't take it, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. So yeah, I definitely do not look like someone that has PTSD with anxiety, or maybe I do. But yeah, I just wanted to just to lay this out and see how it goes.