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The text discusses the importance of becoming secure by being accountable, despite the discomfort it may bring. It emphasizes that accountability is not about self-blame but recognizing one's choices and removing the illusion of helplessness. Security prompts one to question why certain patterns persist and encourages choosing unfamiliar peace over familiar pain. Developing self-trust and the willingness to notice and change old patterns are key in this journey towards security and growth, even though it may feel isolating or fearful at times. Let's talk about something that's uncomfortable, but necessary. Becoming secure means becoming accountable, and that can be scary, because for a long time your pain had a clear explanation, your childhood, your trauma, your past relationships, and your attachment style. And all of those things matter, they shape you, but security changes the question. Instead of asking, why am I like this? You start asking, what am I going to do differently now that I know better? Accountability is not self-blame. I want to be clear. Accountability is not about blaming yourself for what happened. It's about recognizing that you now have a choice, and choice removes the illusion of helplessness, which can feel destabilizing if victimhood once provided clarity. When healing removes your excuses, and then when you become more regulated, you can't unsee red flags. You can't unknowingly chase unavailable people. You can't stay in cycles and call it fate. Security asks, why am I choosing this? And that question can feel confronting. Familiar pain versus unfamiliar peace. For many people, familiar pain feels safer than unfamiliar peace, because familiar pain comes with predictability. You know how it ends. Peace requires trust. Trust in yourself, trust in your boundaries, and trust that you'll survive disappointment without abandoning yourself. That's a big leap for a nervous system trained to breathe. Choosing differently can feel lonely. When you start choosing differently, you may feel misunderstood, disconnected, or separate. Not because you're better, but because you're no longer operating from old patterns. And that transition can feel isolating. The responsibility of self-trust. Security isn't about controlling outcomes. It's about trusting yourself to respond, to leave when it's not right, to speak up when something feels off, and to soothe yourself instead of chasing reassurance. That level of self-trust takes time. And fear around it is normal. Here's a gentle reminder. You don't have to be perfect to be accountable. You just have to be willing to notice. Notice when you're triggered, notice when you're choosing familiarity, and notice when you're abandoning yourself. This is the work. If this part brought up resistance, that's okay. Growth often does.