Dont stop believing

The speaker discusses various topics, including personal struggles, the importance of self-improvement, the challenges of being a parent, and the impact of society on children. They emphasize the need for personal growth and accountability as adults and the responsibility to shape the future for children. They also reflect on their own childhood experiences and the influence it has had on their life. Overall, they emphasize the importance of staying connected to one's inner child and making conscious efforts to create a positive environment for children. what up what up it's your girl Satine in the house for it's fine it's fine everything's fine podcast I have been just in a weird mental space lately because it's just a lot going on man if it hasn't been one thing it's just been another and it's just like I had back-to-back-to-back birthdays so it's my birthday is May 1st and then my son's is May 15th and then my daughter's is June 8th so I kind of was taking them some time because like and it's not an excuse though right we always are making excuses for ourselves because at the end of the day it's really nothing more than just sitting down and doing anything right it's like who else is guilty of this because I know I sure am that I'll be like dreading and procrastinating taking my time on things and then I'll finally like you know I'm just gonna do I gotta do it I wait until I have to do okay now I have to do it sit down and do it and it takes like one minute no not literally but like you know no more than 10 10 to 15 and I'm just like so it took me three four weeks or however long a couple days a week whatever just to do this one thing that took me 15 minutes tops Wow I need to get my life together right haha that's something for me and I mean completely honest like I am just so guilty of being that way and I'm like trying really hard to stop being that way because it's like I know that I just turned 27 and I got a whole eight-year-old now which is really crazy and a three-year-old and it's like time to kick it in high gear because I don't want I don't know why everybody else I know I personally do not want to be not even only in my 30s but definitely not going into my 40s regretting like Wow looking back and thinking to myself like wow I what have I done with my life I don't want to be there like I just don't I don't know why everybody else but and kudos to you if you don't give a fuck but I used to not but now that I'm older and it's like I'm getting older I'm approaching my 30s it's really just starting to hit me different like it's making me really just evaluate where I am in life and be like man I am so ready to like be in a next chapter of my life and I'm just slowly just trying to shed all the skin of my past off of me and grow into this new woman because I'm like it's either now or never and I like I don't want to wake up and it'd be another 10-15 years past and I'm just like what did I do with my time what did I even do I just been chillin having fun and being a mom and you know it's like shout out to all the moms out there but never forget my ladies that we are still more even than just being moms before we had kids we were ourselves and I think moms don't get enough respect or credit for all that they do because until I was a stay-at-home mom now for the last year and some change like I didn't even respect how seriously hard it is to be in a house with kids all day every day the constant cleaning the constant mom I need this I need this I need mama my son literally will say mom to me like Stewie Griffin like on some funny shit I'm not even kidding he will literally be like mom mom mom mom mom I'm like what Roman and he'll say love you or mom and just look at me like that's all he wanted to say he didn't want to say my name he didn't even care he had nothing he didn't need nothing he was fine so speaking of these kids too like man with all these kids you know kids birthdays and everything else like I just want to touch on the youth man and talk about how it's really getting crazy out here like these kids like man we we can talk about the kids cuz see the kids are our future right like they are what's left and kids are just so innocent and they really have no real idea of what's going on in this world they're still so innocent so but they're very smart and that's all the thing right I think we all like are guilty sometimes not really me so much cuz I personally wasn't even the person who ever wanted kids and if you are a person out there women woman wise a woman out there or a man too but especially for women if you don't want kids don't ever feel bad about that because as much as I love my kids I never wanted kids and I wouldn't even I wouldn't say I would ever take it back obviously like I love my kids and I'm very happy to be a mother and they are a blessing but they're a lot of work and I could have still stuck to my first game and I wouldn't say I wouldn't want to do that still because it definitely stops your life to have kids but where I was going initially with all that was to say like I have a friend who is like a stepdad kind of like story time I have a friend who is a stepdad to because he used to date their mom but their mom is in prison there's these kids he's still like isn't a person in their lives which I think is really awesome shout out to him for you know still remaining a solid male figure in these kids lives but because their father and their mother are both in prison right now right and this little boy came over to my house and I could just tell that he was just screaming for some attention and love that's what he was lacking in his life you know he's only 10 but he thinks he's grown and as much as you know you might have run into a kid like him right and think he's just a little asshole like just you know testing boundaries and pushing limits and doing too much and thinks he's grown but when I sat and really talked to him I seen this hurt and sad and in much of need of love little boy and it really you know broke my heart because I know that he is one of many children out here that is just lost these kids are so lost because look at what is going on in our society right now like it's just a lot and I'm not going to touch into every single thing I would just want to really stay focused on talking about the kids you know I'm really ADHD I'm trying my best guys I'm trying to do better I just try to stay focused what I'm trying to say get it all the way out and move on so we're not like going here going there I know it's kind of hard and because it's just like oh shit like what did you say oh oh okay there she goes finally back 20 but another stories later so anyways stick to what I'm saying about the youth and I want to say like we have to acknowledge and understand how like we are the future by what we are giving our children like knowledge wise morals wise standards wise expectation wise accountability wise what we're doing for them as these little kids that it's easy I think as adults to separate like being a child to being an adult right and there is for sure I'm not by any means trying to say a child is an adult so don't misconstrue where I'm going with this just hear me out where I'm going with it though is the fact that even though they are kids they are future adults right and there is really no separation because I don't know about you guys but I know when I was a kid I used to like see like pretty girls or like rich people in general like driving nice cars nice houses and I just remember being a kid thinking I can't wait till I'm there I cannot wait till I get to that place right there and like I thought because I had a pretty like not so I had a really good childhood in a lot of ways I had a very hard home life which is whatever well that's another story too but the bottom line was you know I hated when I was kid being at home I never wanted to really be there so I would be out a lot as a kid but and I'd see these successful people are these pretty people and I used to always be like man I hope I could be like that when I'm older and I can't wait till I get to this place and my life is different now and I don't have to be here because I'm an adult I get to make my decisions but here's the thing I guess when I was a kid for some odd reason I had this idea in my head that there was like a moment where I went from being a child to being an adult when in reality none of us get to experience that unfortunately this like magical we just don't even think about our childhood ever again and we're just adults now and like now we're just living this part of our life it's like it's like a movie that never ends right so all these adults out here are just a bunch of kids that grew up and me myself included right and I think the goal as an adult is to always stay in touch with your inner child because that's how you stay young forever but when it comes to being a kid where we as adults do need to understand that we are going to create what our kids are in the future so whether your kid turns out good or bad is solely based on how you have treated them and prompt them to be in this world and unfortunately right now it's you're seeing it more and more where because of the way society is set up all these kids out here are like kind of raising themselves and it's showing even if they have their parents in the household you're seeing it and I know I can even be guilty of being that mom that's like just watch TV you know go play outside and I'm very mindful of the time I do spend with my kids and I am very mindful of the things I make sure I'm instilling in them for their future because me personally I am very aware of how my childhood you know I had to take that time to acknowledge like what my childhood has done to impact me as an adult but also learning to how to learn where I have to take my accountability for the things that I am doing as an adult regardless of what happened to me as a child because here's the thing right even if you are a child or once you were a child I'm sorry even when you were once a child that was a victim and subjected to whatever that is whether it's because of the things of your environment to the home life to you know whatever it is you know because it's like everybody has their trauma and so it's like no matter where it came from as a child like understanding where did that affect me and it made me have to become a certain way because when you're a child you're helpless and then when you become an adult now you're in full power but if you don't kind of make that understanding of where as an adult you've empowered who you have become due to your childhood you're gonna still sit there and blame your parents for the rest of your life for why your life is not going how you want it when the sad and true unfortunate hearts pill the swallow of reality is no your life is a soul after the age of 25 and your brain is fully developed you are in full control of your life you and you alone because from who you deal with to what you do it's all a choice that is done by yourself and if you don't understand that then you're never going to get to anywhere you want to be in life because you will forever be living in the miserable standing of wanting to blame everyone else for your problems and I don't want that for anybody because there's nothing worse than I remember when I used to be in that like I'm like uneducated spot in my life within my and I say uneducated as uneducated within myself because I was not really all the way in tune with who I was or where I was at right and when I was being victimized by myself in life because I was sitting there playing this blame game like it's their fault that because like if I wasn't treated like this by my stepdad and if my mom just did this for me more and if my family could have just understood me like this then maybe I wouldn't be going through this no fuck that you know I had to that was such a stupid idiotic attitude that I was holding because I'm over here blaming them well if I wouldn't have my mom didn't move me to Grand Haven when I was a kid and I could have actually been raised around my own culture maybe I wouldn't have found myself going to the hood getting into shenanigans no whether regardless that that couldn't be the case me as an adult woman still being in the hood on shenanigans that's my fault though that's not my mom's you know so with that being said that kind of all ties into where I wanted to finish saying when it comes to these kids like this importance of the examples that we are showing these kids and what we are making sure we're instilling in them right now because they are our future and the way things are going just like we were a product of our parents wrongdoings and failures that's going to be them next and if we're not taking accountability and I know it's really easy as an adult to be so busy because of the way that our society is set up like we got work we got bills we got this we got that by the time we're done doing everything we're tired after you know it's like it's easy to push the kids off I know I can be guilty of that too it's easy to push them off just go play go behind the tablet go be in I don't me personally I don't do tablets in my house but I know that that's a very common thing in this society right now and we're just pushing these kids off onto the internet and letting anybody else be really teaching them things because at the end of the day they're learning whatever they're reading or seeing on there or these videos they're watching we have to understand the influence that that is impacting like think back to your childhood if you do just ignore what your childhood was like just take a second and think about that think about the shows you watch that shapes you into who you are today because everything from your childhood is what shapes you into the adults you are until you decide what who you want to be as an adult regardless of anything else right and these poor kids man we got to give them the love that they're looking for because I know one thing that I can so thankful and I can be super like happy about that I take positively from my childhood for sure was I was very very loved by my grandparents more than anybody else my grandparents gave me so much love and undivided like attention and undivided dedication and that morphed me into a person who really understands love and I'm very blessed for that and I thank God for that and because I'm so able to understand love because I felt it and I seen it it just makes me be able to love others like the way I do and I want to teach my kids that same love too and I am praying and asking God to continue to have it be where I'm doing everything I need to do and for my kids so that they can grow up with that same amount of love and cared caring this because I cared for them enough and I gave them that attention that they needed and I gave them that love and now they can become adults and be healthy adults and not have to sit and dwell in trauma or and it's not about being perfect because nobody's ever gonna be perfect doesn't matter how good you are of a parent or not your kids so they're gonna be who they're gonna be right but it's like you do have an impact and if I can teach my kids how to like know love without them having to figure that out on their own like that's obviously the ideal but I also want to touch on getting everybody kind of back into that attitude though where it's like I feel like nowadays we see it all the time people are so on this what's the word I'm looking for like oh these are my kids or these are my kids no all can you should look at all kids the same way I don't understand why like don't get me wrong I understand like loving your kid differently duh but it's like when it comes to kids you should give every single kid the same amount of love and respect and care that you would give your own kid because they deserve that because they are innocent and they probably are lacking it at home when kids are there's no such thing as a good or a bad kids kids are like dogs and I know this is gonna sound controversial but this is reality when you meet a good dog why is it a good dog because it has good training when you meet a good kid why is it a good kid because they have good parenting the only difference this is a train to a parent but we are still training our kids to it's just the concept kind of sounds crazy like did this bitch just call kids dogs like no what I'm trying to say is that it's the same thing like it's only gonna be as good or bad as its owner so with that being said not saying like you're an owner over your kids I'm some weird psycho shit but more or less to say that you are responsible God gave you your children well because those are where the kids that were assigned to you as a parent and you are training raising them up to be who they're gonna be in life and you have to look at it like that and are you training your kid to be a good kid are you training them to be a bad kid like or are you letting them just develop into who they're gonna be being and just are looking at it like well that's just who they are and not giving them enough time and understanding and enough for yourself of accountability to say dang if this is an issue I keep having my kids like what am I doing as a parent that is creating my kid to react this way or behave this way because it's like it's all up to us kids are only gonna you know kids are gonna go too far kids are gonna test their boundaries they're gonna have crazy thoughts and all types of stuff because they're kids and they're still little human beings that are trying to figure out their own little minds and they only are gonna do what they think they can and it's up to you to decide if you're gonna teach them like this is not okay or this is okay or and the thing here is that where the importance of how you're acting plays into it right because you can tell a kid I don't know about you guys I remember when I was a kid certain people who would try to talk to me about things and I'm looking at them and I'm like how dare you tell me what I need to do I'm like eight thinking this like how dare you tell me what I need to do and aren't you like always in a bad mood and I don't ever see you cleaning the house but you want to yell at me and tell me to clean the house so we have to be examples because I knew that I respected the people I respected the most as a kid were the same people who were doing what they were supposed to do in life and I could see their results so therefore I respected what they said because I knew they had to know something I didn't because look at how they got things I don't I was eight so you know I say it too because like when I was talking this little boy man he just was like listen all that that horrible music that's all about guns and shaking ass and killing people robbing people and I'm just like oh my god like think about it this poor kid this is what he's listening to this way he's idolizing these rappers got all this money and they got all these guns and all these bitches and so that looks cool to a ten-year-old boy right but no like think about that a ten-year-old boy he shouldn't be exposed to that stuff but guess what that's the society we're living in and I'm over here trying tell him otherwise cuz it's making me mad cuz I'm looking at this poor little boy and I'm just like you are 10 bro you're supposed to be like playing with Legos or something like why are you wanting to watch music videos about these kids with machine guns and ass shaking like it's not not tolerating that and that's where all parents need to look at all kids with the same attitude like it would you if you wouldn't want your own kid to do it why are you gonna let another kid do it just because that's not my kid fuck all that I don't care I don't even know his parents I don't got to to know that he is 10 years old and he shouldn't be doing that and so I'm not gonna sit here and be enabling or acting like I'm okay with something that I'm not and I hope that I can make a change in his little life because kids whether you even realize or not to kids need discipline they're looking for that they're looking for someone to care enough to tell them don't do that because it's not good for you because I because by telling someone what's not good for them out of sincere care for their well-being that can make a world of difference in anybody's life no matter if they're a child or an adult because it's like we all want to feel cared for right like who doesn't I know I do I want you to love me I want you to care about me and if you don't my feelings are hurt like you can't just make me think you care about me but you really don't and part of that shows if you would even sit there and allow me to just be doing self-destructive shit like I like when people tell me don't smoke cigarettes I know I shouldn't be smoking cigarettes but here I am smoking them anyways it's a horrible addiction I'm working on it guys still it's gonna be a while but I'll let you know I promise when everything is good again but you know I'm like over here just flabbergasted by this and I know that he was looking forward to we talked a couple times now and I can see him are you having like a absorbent like absorbent miss to the things I'm saying we have to remember all kids are just a bunch of sponges man and they are listening and they're watching and all that so we have to be making sure that we're setting the right examples and we're not just telling kids what they need to do but showing them what they need to do so I want to also go into with the whole gun violence stuff because of like watching all this like I really blame the music for how people are acting nowadays like we I stopped going out right because every time I come home after going out to a bar first of all I never even enjoyed 90% of the time but it's like even when I don't go out I come like I look at not come home but I look on you know the internet and somebody died why are people dying every weekend when they're going out to these bars man like either just stay home or at this rate it's like what do we got going on here what are the common denominators what are these factors that are obviously playing a part in this like is ridiculous it's getting out of control like people are going to the bar and dying when did we get here guys like what's going on that people can't just you know talk about things or communicate or you know it's like if you are a mom or dad out here you should be focused on the kids right there is no reason why you should be even going anywhere where you could potentially be losing your life to party and have fun you know it's like back in the day partying was different so I don't party anymore because back in the day it wasn't like that you didn't it would be that rare occasion that someone brought a gun to the party and everybody was beating that guy up cuz we're not here for that right and you've got some real problems keep that at home or keep that between you and whoever on a personal level between you and them why you gotta bring everybody else into it you got guns at these parties you're shooting off at these parties shooting off at these clubs you're killing innocent people and 90% of the time it sounds like the person who was targeted is never even the one hit it's somebody else and it's like why are you going to public areas and shooting like that's just ridiculous like seriously especially because people go to the bar to just have a good time I think most the time nowadays it does kind of seem like people go there to be like belligerent and cause problems we're getting super old out here guys cuz that's making me sad it's not even doesn't even seem like it's really these kids out here nowadays it's these adults like we are too we are too old for that anybody 25 plus should not be told no guns trying to cause no problems like we are grown you should be able to go talk to somebody man-to-man woman-to-woman about whatever it is because this is getting out of control we all have kids I if you want kids are losing their parents tying that back into the kids they're losing their parents or these are the examples that are being set for our children and then what is going to happen because it's really sad when you hear just recently in our city in Grand Rapids there was a little boy who was 50 years old shot dead at like a lunch recess or whatever like on a playground right outside school why are things like that happening like we have to take the accountability as adults for why these children are even feeling comfortable to be out here acting like that like what are these examples that are being set for them and we got to figure that out and I think if everybody could learn how to take better accountability like start with looking at yourself before the next time you even think about pointing your finger at the next person just think about what are you doing maybe that you could be better in your life and maybe if there's a person in your life who's creating issues in your life what are you doing like what are you doing how are you feeling what is it that's making you even be interacting with a person who is creating that much strife in your life because it is still your fault if somebody is a problem in your life why are you dealing with them what is it that's connecting you to them and then maybe evaluate that I just want my goal here on it's fine fine everything's fine podcast is to spread the message of not only just love because we just all are looking for love man and love doesn't have to always be intimate because that's the other agenda they're pushing out here man and I just that's a whole nother topic for another day but the bottom line is I'm here to spread love and accountability and self awareness and self exploration because if everybody could just get in tune with themselves they will find God and they will find everything they're looking for to make their life whatever dream that they want to make it because we are all capable of having a good life and instead of always having to look at the next person like why them and not me think of why not you and think what are you doing to why you can't be them because the only separation is yourself there's nothing on this earth that you can't get that somebody else has we're all able we are all will is we are willing if you but it has to come from the will and I'm guilty of it too I know I'm guilty of not doing what I know I can do but we're all guilty of it right so as long as we're all trying to do better that's all we can do okay all right guys I hope everybody has a blessed and wonderful rest of their week I'm gonna be trying to make more content about to start doing YouTube videos so look up for that it's gonna be more fun not so serious on that tip I'm gonna make some I'm gonna make some good fun content for everybody so stay tuned and just remember when things get hard it's fine it's fine every