College is scary

The speaker is excited about the first episode of their show, "Connecting with Julian." They discuss the fears and challenges of college, particularly the transition from high school. They talk about their experience at a Catholic school and the difficulties of adjusting to a diverse university. They reflect on their freshman year, feeling suffocated by classmates and experiencing heartbreak. They emphasize the importance of learning and highlight the impact of significant people in college. They acknowledge the uncertainties and changes that come with college but encourage listeners to continue and grow. They conclude by thanking the audience for listening and bid farewell. Hey everyone, so I'm really excited in doing this first ever episode of Connecting with Julian. So for this first episode, we are gonna talk about, or I am gonna talk about, the fears, or like, the fears and everything that has to do with being afraid in college, or like, questioning yourself. So anyway, let's start. So, how do we start? Hmm. Let's start from me being in senior high, which was from another school. The transitioning that I had to do, the freaking transition that I had to do for like the first semester, it was very crucial. So, a little backstory, I came from a Catholic school, all the way, I mean, up from junior high up to senior high, and it was a very different environment. Just imagine graduating grade 12 during the pandemic, during the online class, and like, the transition of being in a face-to-face, being admitted in a diverse university, and it's like face-to-face, so it's like, wow, nerve-wracking, right? So anyway, I was really new to all the stuff, to all of the diverse stuff, everything that has to do with Silaman, I was very, I was new to it. And I didn't even know how I survived it. I mean, I waned it, but like, how the heck did I survive it? So, from the transition, even the first two weeks of the transition, it was very crucial, because, number one, I didn't know anyone from the College of Mass Communication, by the way, that's my course. Number two, I was just, I didn't know anything in college, I mean, I didn't know anything to do in college. I wasn't prepared, I was excited, but I didn't know anything. Number three, I was completely innocent. I mean, not to throw some shade from my previous school, but maybe I am, no offense, but like, this different environment, very much different from SU, very completely different from Dumaguete, because I didn't study in Dumaguete, it was from another city, a smaller city. So, of course, things were a bit different, obviously, a little different, so, yeah. And I just remember, like, I keep getting flashbacks of, like, cringe things that I did back in first year, back in my freshman year, and it was the most crucial, and then again, I can't blame myself because I was too innocent of things. But, yeah, I didn't know stuff, but thank God I did, thank God I do know now. But I had, but it was like a lot of heartbreaks, even times that you get, even, there were even moments, like, not even little moments, but like, it was just, I just felt so suffocated on, I just really felt so suffocated by some of the BS of my classmates, because, well, yeah, I was still adjusting, and we had different attitudes, different personalities, characters, whatsoever, but I'm just saying the truth that it was a lot of BS back in freshman year, and right now, I just, it just feels so absurd, it just feels so funny, of, like, me realizing right now, on this talk, of, like, how things were going so, so, so, so, so fast, that, how I, how it changed me, how the people in Salaman changed me, how the university itself changed me, how these random people changed me. And, yeah, right now, I'm in my sophomore year, still learning, still learning stuff. I was about to say the S-word, but, yeah. So, yeah, I'm still learning. Of course, part of college is about learning, I mean, duh, obviously, but, like, one thing that I continue to learn is that there will be these significant people, not necessarily your classmates from your course, or, like, your blockmates, but, like, people from other, let's say, to be specific, rather, to be specific, people from other courses, like, other students, that, eventually, they would feel, they would make you feel, or that, or the relationship you have with them feels so light, and then, when you least expect it, it changes, because they may transfer to another school, or you may not end up seeing each other more often as you used to, or maybe you, yourself, get to transfer from, to another school, or to another department. It's really, it's really one of those things in college that they always say, and what they continue to say, and I, myself, always love saying, college is full of surprises. It does sound cliché, but, now, I just realized that the cliché things, the most cliché of all things, are actually real. Like, F-R-F-R-F-R-F-R real. And, there are a lot of changes, and, honestly, it's scary, but, on the brighter side, you're still gonna survive it. Like, I know there are a lot of uncertainties. The wind is uncertain. The environment is uncertain. Our choices, you know, we don't know the outcome, actually, like, there's, because, there's not, like, we're not given this, like, certain guide of how things, a certain guide of how things will actually work. Because, every situation, everything that we do is different. It gives a different impact, you know? So, it's scary, but, we continue to do it. I mean, oh my god, I'm sorry, um, we, I just, let me rephrase that. We continue to live. I mean, okay, let me rephrase that for the second time. We continue. Okay, that's it. That's the phrase. We continue. We still continue to continue. Right? And that's just one of the, and that is, of course, one of the most beautiful things in college. We continue to continue. And, I don't know if this talk makes sense, or I do hope it makes sense, but, this is actually what I want to talk about, actually, of how scary life may be. But, we continue to grow. We continue. So, I really hope I made sense. I hope I slapped some sense, but, like, um, but anyway, kidding aside. Kidding aside, um, wow, I'm getting emotional. I'm so sorry. Um, it may get scary, but, during, during the times of being scared, or, like, during the time scare, you learn, and you continue to learn, and, like what I said earlier, college is full of surprises, and, yeah, I wish you all well, and, I'm afraid we're losing a lot of time. I mean, we are losing a lot of time. Oh my god. So, like, yeah. I think I talked a lot of sentiments today, so, I bid you all farewell, and thank you for listening. Thank you for listening to Connecting with Julian. Bye-bye.