adriana and yvonne

Yvonne and Adriana discuss their experiences as first-generation college students and feeling a lack of belonging. They share their frustrations about not finding the sense of community they expected, especially in terms of diversity. They also talk about the pressure they feel to know their career paths and the challenges they face without guidance. Yvonne expresses homesickness and uncertainty about continuing her college education. They both agree that it's okay to not have everything figured out and feel the pressure to conform. I mean, what? Oh. It started. Oh. OK. That's nice. OK. We have to wait 10 seconds. Oh, dang it. Did you do that? Yeah, I did that. We're in a hurry. OK. I think we're good. OK. Hi, my name is Yvonne. And this is Adriana. And we're going to talk a little bit about sense of belonging at the U as a first gen. Recently, I feel like when I'm in clubs, I feel like people say, like, join clubs, join clubs. They're like, you'll meet a lot of people, and you'll just feel a sense of belonging. But ever since I've been here and I've been joining multiple clubs, I don't know. I just haven't felt that yet. And it's just like, it's upsetting at the same time. We were talking a little bit about this, and then we forgot to hit record. So we're like, we should hit record and then talk about everything. But yeah, look, he's same. Like, I feel like I wasn't in first gen last semester. Oh, this is my first semester. And like, in the first gen space. And like, I literally, I've never seen like that many Latinos in like one class. I feel like, literally since I've gotten here, I've met like one Latino person, like outside of the first gen. Yeah, and I don't know, it just made me feel like, you know? No, yeah. No, I get that feeling. Especially like, in my class, like, I'm majoring in nursing. And like, at the moment, I don't know, in a lot of my classes, I barely see like diversity. And it's a little bit hard for me, because like, not many nurses are, you know, Latinos. And like, it's hard to have like that motivation to like, well, should I keep going? Or like, am I going to get like the same rewards as others? Like, oh, is it because she's Latina, she's not going to like join this program or whatever? And I feel like people like expect you not to make it, you know? Especially if you're like Latino, like a first gen, you know? Because like, I mean, it is harder, because there's no one really there to like guide you on what to do. Like, I remember when applying, even like applying to college was so stressful, because like, none of my friends did it. Facts, yeah, literally. And there's no one to tell you like this and that, and look at the deadlines. Oh, yeah, facts. Yeah. So you said that you only wanted to get your, your, or you had other dreams? Oh, yeah. Well, at the moment, I don't know. Just because like, I'm like a big family person, so like, being home, like being far from home, I'm like hella homesick. And like, I still am. Like, it's hard to like get by every day. Like, I don't know if like, if this is, if I'm going to finish my four years, I might just get my associate's degree. But like, in like, personally, I have like other dreams. I'm not going to say it, because I'm a little bit embarrassed. But like, but yeah, I have other dreams. And I don't know if like, this one's the one I want to stick to. I don't know if I feel happy right now. Yeah, I know. I was going to say that. But we were talking about how like, sometimes, people expect you to just like, know what to do, like even before you get to college. And then you get here, and like, even like, so many people here just don't know, still don't know like, what they want to do. And I feel like that's okay. Yeah, it is. But like, you feel that pressure to just like, be. To like, know your path. And just like, girl, hold up. Hold up.