Why not publish a story?

The speaker discusses the death of her husband, Paramahamsa Nityananda, who was the leader of a violent cult. She shares her own experience of becoming involved in the cult and defends Nityananda's intelligence and skill despite acknowledging the violence within the group. She questions why there is a lack of public discussion about his death and criticizes those who still support his teachings. The speaker also mentions Narendra Modi's connection to Nityananda and expresses her determination to expose the Hindu system she never wanted to be a part of. She emphasizes the importance of decency and condemns the violence perpetrated by the cult. The speaker ends by questioning why the story of Nityananda is not being published and suggests that an era may be coming to an end. I spoke a little about the death of my husband a while ago, and I wrote a little here and a little there. And I haven't received any questions, but I know, or feedback, but I know that for some people there may be questions, starting with the name, what does Nityananda mean, I explained it in one of my subtitles, I think, or commentaries or texts, as eternal bliss, and that it is said that it really was not like this with Paramahamsa Nityananda, not in the here and now at least, eternal bliss, what does it mean, he speaks about the soul with this name. And the truth, though, is that the cult he stood for, or he headed as a guru, is a monstrous cult with violence that is unfathomable to many people. I'm not going to talk much about this in detail in public, but the people who were affected by the cult, and many, many were over the past few years in particular, but over decades, hundreds and thousands of years perhaps, I'm not quite sure how many thousand years this cult has been around, but they are feared even in India for what they have been doing. I came to know Paramahamsa Nityananda by seeing a video, and that's really all, and I had been practicing yoga on and off for about 40 years, I was a yoga teacher, I mean I didn't teach group classes, but once in a while I gave private lessons, so I'm not the typical yoga teacher to begin with, and what I had been focusing on was chakra theory and health, and then I saw his video and I thought, oh, it could be interesting, I could perhaps learn a little more here, and I registered for a program which then pulled me into something I could not escape from, because this is the way Nityananda seemed to be structured back then, or maybe others were able to walk away, but I wasn't, and even though his teachings or some of his deaths and disciples, to be more precise, are extremely violent, and some of his masters perhaps too, because it is an extreme teaching for most people or many people, which is why it should be taught to a minority or to a handful of people only who are really interested and who are ready and willing to live in a monastery, but despite all of this, it is deeply spiritual teaching, and it is religious teaching, even though then you look at it from a western point of view, or from the point of view of someone who is an initiate and who understands the Hindu teaching and Hinduism, and then you know that Hinduism is a science and not a religion, and then now you can start to think about your own religion and where you stand, do you see your religion as a science, may you take step A and then step B and then you reach point C, or are you devoted to a higher principle and you take a step in love here and another step in love there, which is enough for most people who are not on a deeply, deeply, deeply inner spiritual journey, and I think that may have been a mistake Nityananda made that he pulled people into this very deep inner religious experience that people did not want to make, but I don't know at this point what to say, Nityananda has said, Paramahamsa Nityananda has said, and it is very strange to me that nobody wants to publicly talk about his death, no matter how people think about him and the manner his people were, and were to him too, one should not underestimate the violence he experienced from his own adepts and disciples, especially when they wanted to leave and they couldn't leave, yeah, now I forgot the beginning of the sentence, what to say, I couldn't leave, I turned into a disciple, because once you're in there, in that group, you have to make the best of it, and then I was a bhakti, I'm saying this here for some people, that they can stop or drop the pretense of thinking they know or understand anything that happened in this cup, if they were not in there and made the same experiences, whether I was in there voluntarily or not, and I was not in there voluntarily, so take a step back, if you have questions, ask your questions, and if you are afraid of publishing the story of a man who died, who was also a victim himself, I'm not saying he is blameless, believe me, I'm not, but he was a victim himself too, and no matter how you stand to him, his level of skill and intelligence is in many areas unparalleled. I'm surprised myself that I'm defending him here, but I know the amount of curses that have been flying around since his passing and before his passing, and he also was a victim and a recipient of curses, and this will not go unpunished. There are still people who defend his teaching and his methods, or let's put it this way, there are still some disciples and adepts and people who became guru because of him, who are practicing the violence he himself did not condone, maybe in defending himself, I don't know that, but I know there are a few very ugly creatures in his Sangha, very ugly, and I hope the public can distinguish between who are his victims, like many girls who were trapped, and who are the perpetrators, like some guys who were empowered. And what side is Narendra Modi on? This is perhaps to many people the most interesting question. Why did he protect Paramahamsa Nityananda? Who is his guru now? Because in India you could say almost everybody has a guru, even Jews and even Christians have a guru in India, whether they want to or not. And here in the West we are tired of that system, which we never actually wanted. But now here I am, having had the insight into a Hindu system that I never wanted, and I'm going to make it public, so this menace will stop. And just to make it clear, I've been helping Indians, as well as Americans, Europeans, Jews, in Israel, Muslims, all over the world. It is not a question of religion, it's a question of decency and knowing good from evil. So keep your evilness to yourself, Hindu, and Adepts, who still think they can do all these evil things to women and men and boys and children, and all the rest of the world. Yeah, the story nobody wants to publish, at least until now. And what is the story of Paramahamsa Nityananda? You will not get away with it. Yeah, the story nobody wants to publish, at least until now. And what if Paramahamsa Nityananda was buried and not burned? The story that was not published. There are other cults and Sanghas, too, who may be as extreme as Nityananda. But as far as I know, nobody taught the way Nityananda taught. And if that is really true, an era is coming to an end, and why is no one knowledgeable or willing to publish it? He gave all of you might or power, or whatever the right word may be. You may have realized that he gave all of you might or power. He gave all of you might or power, or whatever the right word may be. You may have realized that you're losing. You may be losing your Shaktis, if you build them. And this is not... It is always God's will. I think I wanted to say something completely different in that recording, but that's what I said. We do not take gifts from India or from Hindu deities or disciples or masters. Give your gifts to yourself. Thank you. The only gift that's accepted is money on the bank account, to make this clear once and for all. Thank you.