This song is about me hiding my feelings from the world and isolating myself because i'm afraid people I loved for a while would reject me because of it. Like, I can't let myself get emotional around people because everytime I do they would laugh at me and stop talking to me, so I cant even trust my loved ones to do the same! I'm chasing after life and happiness, but I just can't catch up to it...I really can't! I was crying silent tears while recording and writing this song because It deep