The girl broke the speaker's heart, making him sad and angry. He contemplated suicide but decided to write instead. Girl I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand but I can't, wanted to be your man back then And you knew, I fell for you, but you just broke my heart in two I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed, hoping I could rid of all the voices in my head I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med when I was mad with a prescription of a bullet made of lead And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of mild sweat, I said I swear to god I'll never even try to sleep again So instead I picked my pen and started writing evidence