narration (19)

Nico reveals to the speaker that sharing blood is dangerous, as it can lead to losing control over one's thoughts and feelings. The speaker recalls instances of blood bonding with Elijah, realizing it may not have been accidental. It becomes clear that Elijah sought out the speaker after knowing about their relationship with Jasper, and the speaker craved the bond with Elijah. Nico trailed off, seeing my expression. I thought you knew. And it's dangerous. I already knew the answer, I felt it every time we'd shared blood. Besides the fact that you can control the other person? Pity was all over his face. Your mind becomes so muddled with them, their thoughts, their feelings, that you can't tell which are your own. The blood becomes an addiction. It can be hard to think rationally when your body craves nothing but them. Memories swirled as I tried to think back to when we'd first shared blood. Elijah had cut my hand. Was that an accident? He'd told me about the blood bond. He'd taken blood first, without asking. He kissed me while his lip was bleeding. Coincidence. All that was after he knew about Jasper and me on the beach with Amur. And every time after that, we had bloodbonded after I was with Jasper. Like a sick reaction to his jealousy, he'd sought me out. And I'd wanted the bond, wanted him so desperately that I couldn't even think straight.