Seun 2

The speaker reflects on their past focus on academic success, their lack of emotional conversations with family, and their evolving definition of success to include providing for loved ones and finding personal peace. They discuss a shift from valuing grades to prioritizing a life that feels meaningful and authentic to themselves. They acknowledge the need for editing and express gratitude. I'm over there, sorry, I hold that question. Sorry, boss. I sound like Hulk Henry. So just edit all of this out, by the way. So yeah. So yeah, you know, I did a bit of engineering. And I mean I did a bit of engineering. It was more of, you know, do a laptop, write a script, which is also computer science. But in terms of just getting your hands dirty, you know, getting this material and mixing it with this. So I just really like clean my hands. And obviously the next morning I'll act like, you know, nothing is wrong. And even when I was new in university back home, I ended up spending a lot of time actually in the engineering department rather than the medical department, just because of, I just like how things worked, you know. They're looking at all fluid dynamics and all of this. I just liked it. You know, when I go home, it was sort of like, you just feel like the pressure was too much. I'm like, are you going to double that? Even though that's not what I want. So that was when I felt the most pressure. Have I ever talked to, sorry, next question is, please cut this out. Well, next question is, have I talked to my parents about how I felt and what was their response? So that conversation, frankly speaking, never happened. And honestly, I don't think it will ever happen. It's just sort of water under the bridge, obviously. In my family days, when I spoke a way of dealing with things, we just moved forward in silence. And I think they assumed I was okay because I was performing. So we never really talked about the emotional side of things. So that's sort of the way it is. So my mum sometimes obviously sort of tries to, you know, get me to, you know, talk, but I don't just feel like it's her fault because it's not a, you know, blame this person or blame that person. It was sort of, the environment also does not foster, you know, parents sitting there and just having a proper conversation and be like, oh, what do you think about this, you know, you see what I mean? So, yeah. And the final question is, how do I define success now? Has it changed? So a few years ago, you know, as I said previously, success was academic, purely for me. It was a high grade, a fancy title. You know, you've got a first class in mechanical engineering. That was success for me. You know, something that proved I was doing it right, you know. But now success means to me, you know, is being able to provide for my loved ones, you know, giving a life that feels meaningful and creating peace for myself. It's not about kicking the bucket anymore, just, you know, going by the, you know, what they've said in front of me. It's more of now saying, okay, what do I find peace in doing, you know? And it's just essentially making sure that the life I'm building feels more like mine rather than someone else's, if that makes sense. But yeah, that's everything. So please, please, please edit it. Thank you.