Hero's End. a hero's confession (Take 1)

The speaker reflects on their actions and expresses regret for not being able to save something important to them. They admit to neglecting their duty and failing their people. They explain that meeting someone changed their perspective and made them realize that saving the world would lead to madness. They express sadness for not being able to save their nemesis and apologize for not expressing their true feelings. So, this is it then, after everything I've done, what, no bloating, no last minute model for my dear arch nemesis. The least you could do is entertain me in my final moments. But, it really must be my turn to go all out. Well, for my final words, I have a confession. I started all of this in an attempt to save something. Our city. Our nation. Our world. Something I want to matter to anything beyond myself. I thought I was making a difference. You know, saving the planet, inspiring others to do the same. But then, I met you, and all of that faded away to the sidelines. Then you noticed, I stopped my other missions. I neglected my duty. I failed my people. It was you. I, I became upset. Do you want to know why, Billy? When I saw you, I, I felt the world's pressure on your shoulders. I realized that the very thing I was trying to save would lead to madness. I stopped wanting to save that world. I knew that I could make a real difference right there. Countless battles. Your losses. Temporary victories. And after all of that, ah, oh, look at me now. What a hero, huh? I couldn't even, I couldn't even save the one thing I truly cared about. If, if only I could have won, then I would have saved my dear first nemesis. I, I'm so sorry. I never got to tell you how I really felt.