Dumb

The speaker expresses feeling dumb and stupid for being so happy around the person they like. They reflect on their initial interactions and find the person funny but feel frustrated and insecure about their own feelings. They jokingly blame the person for their current state and vow to make them make up for it. Sometimes, you make me feel so dumb, well not actually dumb, but I feel stupid for saying anything. I wait around for a text, staring at my phone, hearing a response, basic and sweet, get the dumbest, stupidest smile on my face. I hate that you make me feel so fucking happy, like I just like you too much. Sometimes, I go back and re-read our conversation, and remember how different things were when we first met. We probably knew each other well enough, and you could just say whatever you could to get a reaction out of me. You really are so funny, I mean, not as funny as me, but you know, like pretty fucking funny. I wonder when I started to like you, I wonder if I always sort of liked you, but I'm not sure when this overwhelming stupid feeling, feeling so stupid, stupid kind of, I like you so much, it's really ridiculous. It's generally pretty hard for me to be honest with my feelings. Maybe that's why they're so fucking frustrating, and I feel so dumb, so maybe it's just inconsiderate of you to be so, so insecure all the time, yeah, this is totally your fault, I'm gonna make sure you spend the rest of your life making up for it, got it?