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The person starts the video by expressing uncertainty if anyone will listen or care. They explain that they haven't been on TikTok for a while and invite viewers to check their recent videos to understand why. They mention feeling gross about something that happened and not wanting to go into details. However, they mention doing some soul searching and praying and express missing talking to friends on the app. They acknowledge that what happened to them was vile and difficult to let go of. They mention a livestream where they were sexually harassed by a gay guy and felt that the host didn't care about their well-being. They mention blocking someone who made a video about them and not caring about their comments. They express uncertainty about returning to TikTok but mention missing making videos. They talk about their struggle with the situation and their plan to test the waters and see if they feel comfortable coming back. They emphasize that it's not their fault and that they shouldn 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. Hey there, TikTok. I'm unsure if anybody will even listen to this or care that I'm making this video, but I've not been on for a long time. And you can go to my most recent videos and see why I have not been on for a long time. I am not going to go over it. I still feel gross thinking about what happened. But I'm probably coming back to this app. I'm probably coming back. The last thing I made was a video that I felt had to be made, which I don't even know why it had to be made. I don't have any common sense in regards to the attempt on Donald Trump's life. But I've been doing some soul searching, some praying, getting better with myself. And I don't know what's in store for me on TikTok. But I know that I miss talking to a lot of friends of mine on this app. I do. But what happened to me was so vile that it's hard to let that go. It's hard to think about anything other than what happened when I'm on this app. But, you know, that's just crap that's going to happen. That's crap that's going to happen. It's been several months since it happened. The dude who hosted that grotesque, disgusting livestream where he let what happened to me go forward made a video towards me, finally, after a long time, but I didn't even watch it, I just blocked him because I don't give a damn what he had to say. Oh, screw it. For those of you who don't know, again, you can look at my previous videos. I haven't been posting much. But essentially I was harassed in a... I don't know how to say this. I was sexually harassed by a gay guy. And it was on a TikTok live. And everyone just laughed. Even after I told the dude to stop it, no, I'm straight, I'm not interested. He said, I don't care, I like them straight. The host didn't even come to check on me. He didn't give a damn. If I was a woman, I'm sure he would have stopped the whole thing. Sigh. I just... I just don't know what to do. Most likely I'm probably coming back. I don't know what I'll talk about, I don't know what I'll speak on, but I miss making videos here, and I really do. But I've been fighting it, I've been struggling with it. It has been something that has bugged me. But I plan to see how I feel, test the waters a little bit, and see what's going to happen and what's going on. And if I feel comfortable coming back, then I'll come back. But I wanted to make this video because I felt it was important. I wanted to make this video because I felt I had to. For my own sanity. I talked to one of my friends about this, my real-life friend, my co-worker slash friend of mine, and they said, this is not my fault. It's that person's fault. I don't need to feel dirty for crap that somebody else did towards me. And it's hard not feeling dirty about something somebody's done to you, but you know what? I need to at least fight it. I'm way too good for this. I am way, way, way too good for this. So thank you so much for listening to this video. I appreciate you. I hope that everyone is doing well and blessed and is in good spirits and good standing. Regardless of what's going on in the world, I hope that you are at peace with yourself. And thank you for listening to this video. God bless. Thank you for listening.