Checking myself for growth 3

The main idea of this information is that one must discipline oneself and take ownership of their actions and thoughts. No one will do it for you, so you have to bring order and control to your own life. The fear of failure should not hold you back from making progress and trying new things. It is important to stop relying on others and start relying on yourself. The fear of failure is comparable to the fear of death, but it is necessary to accept it and move forward. You have to discipline yourself. No one is going to do it for you. No one is going to hold your hand or showcase what works for you. Your mind is only going to get to the rock favorable to pleasure. You have to take the reins and bring order. Just as you are the master of your home, you are the ruler of your mind and all of your other functions. This has always been about ownership. It's one of the true differences between a man and a boy. It goes hand in hand with accountability. No one is going to tell you what to do when deep down you already know. Stop being afraid to fail. You fail anyway doing otherwise, so what is the point? You're avoiding failing by your own mistakes, thus preventing yourself from producing genuine progress. Because you are stuck doing the same things you have done since you were a child, the circle has gotten smaller and smaller. It's plain to see you are doing what you saw and you cannot get out of your own way. I have a fear of failing by my own means, a fear of reliance on myself. It comes from a lifetime of lynching off others. Why you can't relax or be still? Because it's now a reflex to second guess and ramble on into overthinking. It's made me so tense and altogether aware that I've been out of touch for a very long time, so it comes down to me, man. The fear of failure is on par with death on a subconscious level. I have to accept it. I can't carry on like this.