Checking myself for growth 2

The transcription discusses the topic of delusion and its impact on one's life. The speaker describes how delusion can consume their mind and prevent them from seeing the bigger picture. They reflect on their own experiences, feeling trapped by their own thoughts and struggling with their sex life. The speaker realizes that they need to stop giving so much focus to one aspect of their life and start treating it as just another part of their overall existence. By doing so, they believe they can overcome their challenges and avoid self-sabotage. Rwy'n gobeithio eich bod chi'n gweithio'n fawr iawn. Rwy'n gobeithio eich bod chi'n gweithio'n fawr iawn. Rwy'n gobeithio eich bod chi'n gweithio'n fawr iawn. Rwy'n gobeithio eich bod chi'n gweithio'n fawr iawn. Rwy'n gobeithio eich bod chi'n gweithio'n fawr iawn. Rwy'n gobeithio eich bod chi'n gweithio'n fawr iawn. Rwy'n gobeithio eich bod chi'n gweithio'n fawr iawn. Rwy'n gobeithio eich bod chi'n gweithio'n fawr iawn. Rwy'n gobeithio eich bod chi'n gweithio'n fawr iawn. Rwy'n gobeithio eich bod chi'n gweithio'n fawr iawn. Delusion is harsh. It can convince you it's enough. It can convince you it isn't you. Me, it's like a rush of water. If I'm not focused, it rushes right in like a mental wave. Suddenly, my imagination has captivated me with a small insignificant thing and I can't see outside of it. It can be so thick I can see it, but there is no excuse for being dominated by my own mind. Once one knows they can resolve it, the persistence to apply oneself as readily as they can to pull themselves out of it can and will take over. Constant starting and stopping of things, always going back to a controlled state of immaturity, really amounts to insanity. The thought that I've stopped something after developing an excuse to stop on a subconscious level doesn't even cross my mind until it's been shuffled and I've went back to my normal routine. That has been the way of things for me as long as I can remember. My own perspective on it has been so distorted. Looking at my mental, one would think I never stopped and I was this great man who had accomplished so much. Truth be told, it's just out of my judgment. I have to stop feeding into the energy that this is some great life I am leading. It bubbles up every now and then at some form of one feeling, but that's not what this is. That's not what I am leading. The longer I play into that notion, this delusion continues on in some form or another, and I have no one or nothing to blame. I cannot take a break or let up on myself. Some of the biggest issues have the easiest answers. Imagine overthinking about something all week, and then when it's time to actually do it, you fall flat on your face and find that you can't muster the energy to do it or put it a different way. Imagine you place all emphasis on something to an almost unbearable amount, and then when faced with it, you suddenly have no idea what to do. But this is my sex life. This is why it has been problematic and why I haven't been able to get it under control, per se, because I have been putting every last drop of focus on it instead of treating it as just another thing. Stuff in one's life cannot be all in compassion, so thick and concentrated on it, it sucks up the room. It can't be that thing or you fail yourself every time before you even start.