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The transcription discusses the deep tefillah (prayer) of Rachel and Leah from the Torah. Rachel, struggling with infertility, shows spiritual strength by praying for her maidservant's success. Despite her pain, she names her children with meanings reflecting her struggles. Leah also prays through naming her children. The text emphasizes that Hashem values genuine, heartfelt prayers and wants a relationship with us. It encourages personal tefillah and sharing unfinished aspects of life with Hashem. Rachel and Leah's stories illustrate the power of prayer and genuine connection with Hashem. Before I open a theater in the morning, I often pause because sometimes the theater doesn't begin with words. It begins with the ache of waiting in the space between hope and surrender. It's not always neat. It's not always composed. Sometimes it's just real, and that's why I keep returning to two voices, Raho and Leah. The Torah doesn't just teach us halacha. It gives us windows into people, into pain, into prayer. Hashem didn't need to tell us what Raho whispered or how Leah named her children, but Hashem did because sometimes the deepest tefillah is found in the moments we were never supposed to see. In the hearts of two women, each reaching for connection, Raho's first act of tefillah isn't triumph. It's a quiet offering born of aching hope. She sees others building families. She waits and watches, and in that waiting, she finds the strength to turn to Hashem. She gives the tefillah to Yaakov, not as a resignation, but as a spiritual intention. Chazal teaches that Raho even prays for Bila to succeed. A woman asking Hashem to give someone else the very thing she herself longs for, that's not detachment. That's transcendence. And when Bila gives birth, Raho names the child Dan. Hashem has judged me and heard my voice, Bereshith chapter 30, verse 6. Her voice is heard, but something still lingers, the ache isn't gone, because sometimes we get what we ask for and still feel the emptiness. Raho's first act of tefillah doesn't come with triumph. It comes with aching hope. She sees others building families and she waits. She's not just jealous, she's broken. And then she does something extraordinary. She gives her maidservant Bilha to Yaakov, but not as an act of giving up, as an act of spiritual motherhood. Like Sarah before her, Raho chooses to bring children into the world through someone else's body, but through her own longing and prayer. In the ancient world, this was understood. A barren woman would raise children through her maidservant, but Raho does something deeper. Chazal teaches that she didn't just allow it. She prayed for Bilha to succeed. She wanted blessing in the home, and even if it wouldn't come to her, yet that kind of tefillah, praying for someone else to receive the very thing you're still aching for, that's that weakness, that spiritual strength. And when Bilha gives birth, Raho names the child Dan. Hashem has judged me and heard my voice. Her voice was heard. Chapter 30, verse 6 in Beratius. Her voice was heard, but the ache wasn't gone, because sometimes, even when tefillah is answered, the pain still lingers. And then comes her next tefillah, a deeper one. She names the second child, Naftali, saying, Naftulei elokim liftalti. Chapter 30, verse 8 in Beratius. It's hard to translate. She's saying, I've been in a divine entanglement. I've struggled with Hashem, with myself, with my sister, and I'm still here wrestling. Naftali, Naftulei is the noun, and liftalti is the verb, a name made from both a fight, the act of fighting. This doesn't mean clarity. She names, she doesn't mean clarity. She names process, pain that is still unresolved, but brought into conversation with Hashem. Tefillah, Rachel shows us, isn't about waiting for answers. It's about being willing to bring your tangled heart to Hashem, and maybe the most powerful part, she's not praying instead of struggling. She's praying through struggle. Rachel names Naftali with tears in her eyes, and 540 years later, those tears echo in the battlefield, in the land of Eretz Israel in the north, the Galil, the territory of Naftali, a place shaped by exile, by hope, by inheritance. The Canaanite king, Yevin, rules with cruelty, and his general, Sisra, commands 900 chariots, the tanks of their time. And into this sphere steps Barak Ben Adi Noam, from the tribe of Naftali, and the prophet of Devorah tells him, has not Hashem commanded you? Gather 10,000 men from Naftali and Zevolon, that's in Shoftan, chapter 4, verse 6. But Barak doesn't rush into battle, and says, he says something no one else in Tanakh says. He says to Devorah the Medea at that time, if you come with me, I'll go. If you don't, I won't. What's Barak choosing? Not safety, not strategy. He's choosing to bring the voice of Hashem into the field with him, because Devorah isn't just a judge, she's a Medea, a prophetess, the one who received Hashem's word, the one who carries it. Barak, from Shevet Naftali, a descendant from Bilhah, wants to lead, but not without Hashem's presence beside him, and that makes him unique. Not Moshe, not Yehoshua, not Sha'ul, or David. Only Barak insists that Hashem's voice join him in the trenches. Rachel who gave him his name, Rachel who gave the name to Naftali, and the future descendant Barak that came from that tribe, Rachel would have understood that. To feel it doesn't always sit and shul, sometimes it walks into battle. Rachel davened while still waiting, mothering through others, yet wrestling with Hashem in deep pain, and Leah's pain began long before her children were born. She felt unseen and unloved, and with each child she davened through names that carried her hurt and hope. Hashem, the author of the Torah, could have told their stories in just a few lines, but instead he chose to show us every detail, every ache, every turning point, because Hashem wants us to know, I see you, I get you, I'm with you. These aren't just stories. It's Hashem's way of showing that what he values most is the relationship, the reaching, the realness. Like a parent who treasures a child's first wobbly steps, Hashem cherishes every honest tefillah, whether whispered through tears or spoken in gratitude. Two women, two tefillahs, both real, both remembered. So this week, write one personal tefillah in your own words. Don't worry about the format. Like Rachel and Leah, let it come from where you are right now, even if it's messy or quiet. And share one thing from your life with Hashem that feels unfinished. Like Rachel's ongoing tefillah, don't wait for closure to pray. Breathe that ache or confusion into the next body, and let Hashem lead you there.